hector01
Humble Prayer Partner
I ask that you pray for me and my family and friends. Recently both of my older brothers have had battles with alcohol and it's just been tough. I have been the only one in my family that has never had a drink of alcohol or any recreational drug. I have lived a clean life because there was alcoholism in my life, but it has taken its toll on me. I was a good athlete and sports was my outlet, but the times I spent alone and hid all that stuff took so much joy from me. I always have a happy face and have many friends, but inside I am lost. My faith has waivered and life has become just a big worry. I have panic attacks always and lose my concentration and focus a lot. I overthink everything and pay attention to dumb stuff like blinking and breathing and other ridiculous things. Sometimes I feel like I am losing my mind until I tell myself that I am alright and there is nothing wrong with me. I have been the person that was the go-to guy when things went wrong in my family, and that just broke me over the years. I have a beautiful wife and two great kids, but it's still tough. I ask that you pray for me so that God can give me His wisdom, understanding, peace, and wisdom to look at things with a clean and clear mind. To be able to really enjoy my life and not be so empty and alone inside. How I wish I could be happy somehow. Thank you and God bless you all.
