satan wants to kill you, your thoughts are being controlled by him. Get into the word of God, read what Christ has to say about you, you are here for a reason, the Lord does have a plan for your life. Open your bible and read Jeremiah 29:11. If you are a Christian, then your life is not your own, it was bought at a great price and that was Jesus dying on the cross for all of our sins. Don't you understand that your life is such a precious gift, Jesus loves YOU, you are His beloved child and His word says that NOTHING can separate us from the love of God and that He will NEVER leave or forsake us. Begin to worship the Lord, this will change the atmosphere, His presence will surround you and in His presence is fullness of joy. God is not moved by our circumstances, He is moved by our faith and His word says that without faith it is impossible to please Him. He alone can fill your every need if you will just seek Him with your whole heart. He longs for us to come to Him. Talk to Him, He is always willing to listen. :48: :jesus-sign: