I apologize, I keep posting a prayer ...

Yrprinai · Jul 27, 2024

I apologize, I keep posting a prayer request that God probably doesn't handle I don't know if should or want to live or die. And it is hard to pray to God when I am asking for a miracle about which I am told that He does not work that way . God, please have mercy on me and come into my life and act. I have sinned and gone against you. I know that you are an all powerful and all knowing God of abilities, but I cannot fathom why you let so much suffering happen (on me), so I have difficulty understanding that you are loving and merciful. I know that I my prayer requests are like demands for a sign or a miracle, and I apologize .I know it seems difficult, however, please heal me of my illnesses in bipolar disorder/anxiety, which has plagued me all my life, and ischemic (blockage) stroke from last year, from which I have difficulty recovering with mobility issues. Deliver me from financial difficulties. (I am undergoing credit recovery program to pay off my debts, but it is too hard to fulfill. My family in America offered to help, but this has brought problems of its own including damaged relationships and limited help And the future seems dark in terms of current work and other prospects. I feel overwhelmed and am to scared to live or die (I feel like I need to escape my mess (most of which I caused) by taking my life, which is a sin in itself.) Sometimes I wish that I would not wake up in the morning or be killed in a traffic acccident. God, please help me. I know that I am asking for a miracle or a sign. Please have mercy on me. I know it is a sin but I am often tempted to look at a different place for solutions. I actually consulted an Asian astrology/feng shui specialist out of frustration and as a reflection of how bad things have gotten. I apologize to you God and ask for Your forgiveness. (I currently work in a dangerous job, the only kind of irregular work that I can get, but I may be forced to give up my driver's license and due to lying on the job because of the mental health issues and stroke recovery that were already mentioned.)

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We understand your struggles and your desperate cries to God, Yrprinai. Let's come together in prayer and seek God's will for your life, according to His Word.

Firstly, we must acknowledge that God's ways are not our ways, and His thoughts are not our thoughts (Isaiah 55:8-9, WEB). He indeed is all-powerful and all-knowing, and His love and mercy are boundless. Even when we don't understand why suffering happens, we can trust in His character, for He is good and faithful.

It's important to remember that God wants us to come to Him with our needs and desires, but He also wants us to trust in His will and timing. Jesus taught us, "Therefore I tell you, don't be anxious for your life: what you will eat, or what you will drink; nor yet for your body, what you will wear. Isn't life more than food, and the body more than clothing? ... For your heavenly Father knows that you need all of these things. But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well" (John 6:25, 32-33, WEB).

We must also address the temptations you've mentioned. Consulting other sources like astrology or feng shui is not from God and can lead us away from Him. The Bible warns, "There shall not be found with you anyone who makes his son or his daughter to pass through the fire, one who practices divination, an interpreter of signs, or an augur, or a sorcerer, or an enchanter, or someone who practices witchcraft, or a charmer, or a consultant of a familiar spirit, or a necromancer, or a medium" (Deuteronomy 18:10-11, WEB). Let's repent and ask God for forgiveness and strength to resist such temptations.

Regarding your struggles with mental health and physical ailments, remember that God is our healer. "Heal me, O Lord, and I shall be healed. Save me, and I shall be saved; for you are my praise" (Jeremiah 17:14, WEB). Trust in Him, and don't lose hope.

Let's pray together:

Dear Heavenly Father,

We come before You, lifting up Yrprinai. Lord, have mercy on them and come into their life. Forgive their sins and heal them of their illnesses, both mental and physical. Lord, we know You are able to do all things, and we trust in Your goodness and mercy.

Help Yrprinai with their financial difficulties, guide them in their work, and provide for their needs according to Your will. Give them the strength to resist temptations and to trust in You alone.

Lord, we also pray against the spirits of despair and suicide tormenting Yrprinai. In the name of Jesus, we command these spirits to leave and ask You to fill Yrprinai with Your peace, hope, and love.

Thank You, Lord, for hearing our prayers. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.

Lastly, remember that God loves you, Yrprinai, and He has a purpose for your life. Keep seeking Him, trusting Him, and praying in Jesus' name. He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5, WEB).

Yrprinai · Jul 27, 2024

Sorry, I have trouble trusting due to mental illness and I feel that because I suffer from it as a punishment of sorts. (Which seems like a sick and twisted logic)

Of all the ailments, "why this?" I often ask myself

Ipthallion · Jul 27, 2024