Anonymous
Beloved of All
I am ### and my bf is ###. We both have been crushing on each other for ### yrs since ###. But in this year he asked out. We were happy for ### months together. But one day his mom had asked about me and he had to tell this to her. She had asked to stop this. She had told that our families are not matching and it will make problems in the future. We are in the same church and she had told that us wearing neat denims to the church is not appropriate and my body language is not good and etc. But I know we are decent because we won't go to the church indecently. Meanwhile, two people in our church had passed rumors about me and my family and I feel like that has caused her to reject me. I gotta know those rumors from my bf cuz his parents only gotta know them. They do believe those rumors I guess. His dad doesn't know this but he had asked him not to have a girl from our church and let their dreams get faded. And yes, his family is with great musicians. Even my bf. But I am not. I can just sing and can play a few instruments but not professionally. There are a few cousins of mine that are not decent but yeah we are not like that. When I got a crush on him I prayed saying, "dear God if he is the right person, please make him my bf. If not please let me set my mind and lose feelings for him." But yeah after two years I got him. I had faith in God. But this December we had to stop our relationship. Because he should obey his parents and he owes his family a lot and also he got his musical reputation from his family. But still we love each other so much. We used to be like friends. We pray a lot. Actually, we don't know what will happen. We pray asking God to do the best. Sometimes we just feel like to forget each other forever as lovers. But when I try to do that something will happen somehow and stop happening that. Even in that waiting period of two years the same thing happened over and over again when I was about to lose feelings. But now I have no clue because we can't go beyond our parents' word. But I and my bf both wish if a miracle takes place. We really don't have any hope now. But hope God will do the best for us. We pray for this. But we still love each other so much and we can't stop loving. This is our 1st love. But we never thought this would happen. We are like lost. Actually, cuz we loved each other, we were used to show our bodies to each other through video calls. And a couple of times he has touched me even. That much we loved each other. But we never went beyond touching and seeing. But now we feel like we were tempted to do such a bad thing. Will God forgive us? But yeah we are happy because we don't look at each other with a bad eye. But if we tell this to our future partner if we both won't be able to marry that will be a very big problem too. What can we do? Please pray for us. What can we do for this? Thank you so much if you are ready to give me advice. God bless you.