Anonymous
Beloved of All
I am 16 and my bf is 17. We both have been crushing on each other for 2 yrs since 2022. But in this year he asked out. We were happy for 8 months together. But one day his mom had asked about me and he had to tell this to her. She had asked to stop this. She had told that our families are not matching and it will make problems in the future. We are in the same church and she had told that us wearing neat denims to the church is not appropriate and my body language is not good and etc. But i know we are decent because we wont go to the church indecently. Meanwhile two people in our church had passed rumors about i and my family and i feel like that has caused her to reject me. I gotta know those rumors from my bf cuz his parents only gotta know them. They do believe those rumors i guess. His dad doesn't know this but he had asked him not to hv a girl from our church and let their dreams get faded. And yes his family is with great musicians. Even my bf. But i am not. I can just sing and can play few intruments but not professional.There are few cousins of me that is not decent but yeah we are not like that. When I gotta crush on him i prayed saying, "dear God if he is the right person, please make him my bf. If not please let me set my mind and loose feelings for him." But yeah after two years i got him. I had faith on God. But this december we had to stop our relationship. Because he should obey his parents and he owes his family a lot and also he got his musical reputation from his family. But still we love each other so much. Be we used to be like friends. We pray a lot. Actually we don't know what will happen. We pray asking God to do the best. Sometimes we just feel like to forget each other forever as lovers. But when i try to do that something will happen somehow and stop happening that. Even in that waiting period of 2 yrs tje same thing happened over and over again when i was about to loose feelings. But now i hv no clue because we cant go beyond our parents word. But i and my bf both wish if a miracle take place. We really don't hv any hope now. But hope god will do the best for us. We pray for this. But we still love each other so much and we cant stop loving. This is our 1st love. But we never thought this will happen. We are like lost. Actually cuz we loved each other, we were used to show our bodies to each other through video calls. And couple of times he has touched me even. That much we loved each other. But we never go beyond touching and seeing. But now we feel like we were temped to do such a bad thing. Will god forgive us? But yeah we are happy cuz we dont look at each other with a bad eye. But if we tell this to our future partner if we both wont be able to marry that will be a very big problem too. What can we do? Please pray for us. What can we do for this? Thank you so much if you are ready to give me advices. God bless you.