Trohmuaric
Disciple of Prayer
I am ### years born again and I have been having challenges, setbacks, problems, disappointments, obstacles, etc., which gave me anxiety and depression that I have been through medication, but for the past ### months, things got worse. Through it all;
- I have turned to the eternal unchanging truth in Jesus Christ
- I have fasted many times
- I have turned to and trusted in Jesus Christ
- I have proclaimed the word of God
- I have fellowshipped (church)
- I have given to the poor
- I have been prayed for by pastors
- I have cast all my cares and anxieties into him
- I set up a war room in my house where I read the word and pray
- I have won souls by successfully turning some people to Jesus Christ
But the challenges, setbacks, problems, disappointments, obstacles kept rising and rising, and gave me anxiety, fear, and depression, etc. My coach business kept deteriorating, until I was left with ### which had an accident and ### people died including the driver, as if that wasn't enough more challenges kept coming. I tried praying and fasting and nothing happened, then I became angry at God and stopped praying for ### weeks I think, then I fasted with a prayer saying "you're going to have to come for my rescue," nothing happened still. Right now I started having thoughts that the death of the people in the accident has something to do with me, that it's going to stick with me until I kill myself or run mad, and these thoughts give me immense fear and anxiety, I pray to Jesus to help me and nothing is happening. Right now I am praying a prayer saying "God, I hand everything to you," but still nothing is happening. I am about to give up on God and go back to the world, because there is no way I can continue to live like this, when I was in the world I wasn't living like this. Or could I be lying to myself that I am a Christian and God knows me? Could all this be a lie maybe? Or maybe God and Satan, etc., are a hoax? I don't know what to think anymore.
- I have turned to the eternal unchanging truth in Jesus Christ
- I have fasted many times
- I have turned to and trusted in Jesus Christ
- I have proclaimed the word of God
- I have fellowshipped (church)
- I have given to the poor
- I have been prayed for by pastors
- I have cast all my cares and anxieties into him
- I set up a war room in my house where I read the word and pray
- I have won souls by successfully turning some people to Jesus Christ
But the challenges, setbacks, problems, disappointments, obstacles kept rising and rising, and gave me anxiety, fear, and depression, etc. My coach business kept deteriorating, until I was left with ### which had an accident and ### people died including the driver, as if that wasn't enough more challenges kept coming. I tried praying and fasting and nothing happened, then I became angry at God and stopped praying for ### weeks I think, then I fasted with a prayer saying "you're going to have to come for my rescue," nothing happened still. Right now I started having thoughts that the death of the people in the accident has something to do with me, that it's going to stick with me until I kill myself or run mad, and these thoughts give me immense fear and anxiety, I pray to Jesus to help me and nothing is happening. Right now I am praying a prayer saying "God, I hand everything to you," but still nothing is happening. I am about to give up on God and go back to the world, because there is no way I can continue to live like this, when I was in the world I wasn't living like this. Or could I be lying to myself that I am a Christian and God knows me? Could all this be a lie maybe? Or maybe God and Satan, etc., are a hoax? I don't know what to think anymore.