Iโm so sorry about what youโre going through, friend. I just said a prayer for you. May the Lord surround you with His loving presence, provide for your needs in a special way, and help you experience His peace, comfort and joy in the coming days. Iโm really concerned that you mentioned suicide. Please get some help right away -- tell someone who can assist you with how you are feeling. Your life is precious no matter what issues youโre facing, friend. Try not to give up. Hang in there!