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I am very depressed tonight. I dreamed about my old boyfriend David that I left because he abused me so badly. I had that dream last night. This always happens around the holidays when I know he is back from Florida. I feel my life is a total waste, hopeless and with no chance of ever finding a mate. J. is my good, good friend, and we look after one another; but he is too old for me, and he has Alzheimer's. I care deeply about him, but I want a real husband, a good husband, and J. just can not be that. Please pray for me. My heart is so heavy. Life hurts.