Eloirad
Disciple of Prayer
So I am certain that I am in a position that nobody can understand, and i have been in this position for over 15 years. For the past almost eight years, I've been trying unbelievably hard to work through this crazy court ordered program implemented by the United states probation department (there were also a few mistakes made by staff members in “the system”, which resulted in things dragging out even longer). During these past few years, I was able to: Graduate Community College Magna cumulate (And as a result, was able to transfer into what I am told is the second most applied to College in the United States, where i am also doing well, grade-wise); learned American Sign Language; learned Chinese, earned a black belt in taekwondo; earned my log book toward my private pilots license, wrote a book, etc. I have been told by numerous people in my community that I worked my butt off to set up over the past several years, that I am definitely a “comeback kid”. Unfortunately, the US probation department and the US attorneys on the case refuse to acknowledge any of this; since my attorney that my family hired for me to attempt to end probation early just told me two days ago that the courts denied our request (for the second time, despite all my probation officers applauding me in my performance over this entire period of time). I just attended a (one of many) Bible study two weeks ago, where the whole message of the lesson is that, as a believer, God does not care what sin I committed, once it is confessed; as the blood of Jesus has wiped it out; And that I am now “the righteousness of God in Christ”; and that any kind of accusation on a believer is not from God, but is of the enemy. So now, once again The US probation department/US attorneys on my case are stepping in once again to slap me down and tell me that, I am nothing more than a piece of crap who deserves no consideration/i.e. NOT “the righteousness of God in Christ”; and try to make my probation last another two years and three months (this is the second time this has happened, over the past four years). God needs to make up his mind here. I need God to prove to me That As a child of Jesus/God, I DESERVE BETTER THAN THIS! My family and I have been shelling out $90.00 a month for The probation department to monitor my computer Internet usage, and i have proven over the past 7 1/2 years that this is unnecessary-- this is nothing more than a racket. They also have been making me do polygraph tests (once each year, now), where the person running the polygraph test behaves in a very nasty way Being very accusatory and extremely demeaning/degrading. So this time around I'm tired of it. I'm trying to put my foot down this time and say “enough is enough”. This is why I'm putting out these prayer requests, so it is on you guys to pray for this. I am supposed to be one of a community of christians, and i am tired of being treated like i am subhuman. This needs to stop!