Anonymous
Beloved of All
I am the mother of four, went thru a divorce, after he found the love of his life. I wasn't a great mom, I got angry at my kids, I kept on them about cleaning their room, helping around the house, etc... At times I lectured them for hours because I got tired and yelling and screaming and I did it on purpose to try to get them to stop doing crazy stuff. I just wanted to know that if I relinquish my position as being their mother, will that also relinquish my authority to pray for then. My first son has been in and out of jail and is currently in jail again, my 2nd son just told me to stop shoving God in his face, because he doesn't care ( he is going into the Air Force and currently lives with me) my 3rd son would not come to church even though I prayed and went with him to help keep him from going to jail for stealing, and my 4th child, my daughter screams, yells at me, and when I suggest something to her she believes I'm trying to control her. The ex was once a minister, and told me he didn't want to do what God wanted him to do anymore, he wanted to be happy with his love, that he planned on making me the bad guy as the parent and he has the 3rd and 4th child. Like I said I was a horrible mother, I made demands on my kids, forced them to clean their rooms, wouldn't let them spend 14 hours a day playing video games, tried to teach them to do things in a timely manner, at times I screamed at them (I did ask for forgiveness at times because I felt like a basket case) etc.. So, right now I just want to relinquish my mothership over them, meaning change my number, walk away, go live in another country (trying now to find a job overseas), in order that they will not be able to contact me nor I them (they only call me when they want or need something, not to say hi or anything like that). But, I still want to be able to pray for them to keep them protected. I'm not giving up, I just want to move away and start a new life. Hope this make sense.
