Irene Ackerman
Disciple of Prayer
I am struggling to believe that God is a God of Love. In the Bible, His word says make your heart's desires known to Him and believe it will be done, and it will.
Well, I am 17 weeks pregnant, and have a 2-year-old. My children's father left last year in March and was in a relationship with another woman for almost 5 months before returning back to me and our daughter. It was everything I had prayed for, as being a family and raising our daughter together and serving God together as a family was my greatest heart's desire. All was going well till he met a girl at work. He fell in love instantly and left two weeks later to move in with her. Leaving me pregnant and with a two-year-old that has not seen her father for almost 3 months now. He wants nothing to do with the unborn baby and refuses to admit that he exists.
He is now very happy with this woman, and they are already talking about getting married and having children of their own. He has started reading the Bible and has stopped using drugs. This girl seems to be changing him for the better. All nice, but I am still stuck alone, raising our daughter on my own and struggling to put food on the table. I am pregnant with a child that will be born either not even knowing his father's voice.
God is blessing him and this girl that stole him away, knowing he had a family with so much, and she has the opportunity to have the best of my ex and I just had the man that used me and never loved me or our child. This man and woman are being rewarded, and I am struggling to make ends meet. Where is God for me and my children? Isn't it God's will for a mother and father to raise their children together as a family unit? Why would God let him come back into my life just to make me pregnant and leave again? Leaving another baby feeling unloved and rejected. Why put a two-year-old through the pain of losing her father again?
I am happy that he is seeking God and that she is such a wonderful woman, but I wonder what God's word really means as His word is for a father and mother to raise their children together. I gave asked God to help me not love my ex and to help me find a man that would be a father to my children. I am contemplating killing myself as I feel I don't deserve love and happiness. ### was a monster to me and our child, but for this girl, he knows her for 3 months, and for her, he is changing everything so he can be the man she deserves. Where is God? God is a good defense attorney, but it seems like He is on the side of the man that has abandoned his children and the woman that stole another woman's husband and father to her children. My daughter of almost 3 believes that God will bring her daddy back, but her prayers are also just going unheard.
I want to believe that God will save my family, and that my ex will be a husband to me and father to our two kids. But I just don't have faith anymore.
Please, please, please, we need prayer.
Well, I am 17 weeks pregnant, and have a 2-year-old. My children's father left last year in March and was in a relationship with another woman for almost 5 months before returning back to me and our daughter. It was everything I had prayed for, as being a family and raising our daughter together and serving God together as a family was my greatest heart's desire. All was going well till he met a girl at work. He fell in love instantly and left two weeks later to move in with her. Leaving me pregnant and with a two-year-old that has not seen her father for almost 3 months now. He wants nothing to do with the unborn baby and refuses to admit that he exists.
He is now very happy with this woman, and they are already talking about getting married and having children of their own. He has started reading the Bible and has stopped using drugs. This girl seems to be changing him for the better. All nice, but I am still stuck alone, raising our daughter on my own and struggling to put food on the table. I am pregnant with a child that will be born either not even knowing his father's voice.
God is blessing him and this girl that stole him away, knowing he had a family with so much, and she has the opportunity to have the best of my ex and I just had the man that used me and never loved me or our child. This man and woman are being rewarded, and I am struggling to make ends meet. Where is God for me and my children? Isn't it God's will for a mother and father to raise their children together as a family unit? Why would God let him come back into my life just to make me pregnant and leave again? Leaving another baby feeling unloved and rejected. Why put a two-year-old through the pain of losing her father again?
I am happy that he is seeking God and that she is such a wonderful woman, but I wonder what God's word really means as His word is for a father and mother to raise their children together. I gave asked God to help me not love my ex and to help me find a man that would be a father to my children. I am contemplating killing myself as I feel I don't deserve love and happiness. ### was a monster to me and our child, but for this girl, he knows her for 3 months, and for her, he is changing everything so he can be the man she deserves. Where is God? God is a good defense attorney, but it seems like He is on the side of the man that has abandoned his children and the woman that stole another woman's husband and father to her children. My daughter of almost 3 believes that God will bring her daddy back, but her prayers are also just going unheard.
I want to believe that God will save my family, and that my ex will be a husband to me and father to our two kids. But I just don't have faith anymore.
Please, please, please, we need prayer.
