Irene Ackerman
Disciple of Prayer
I am struggling to believe that God is a God of Love. In the bible his word says make your hearts desires known to him and believe it will be done and it will.
Well I am 17 weeks pregnant, and have a 2 year old. My children's father left last year march and was in a relationship with another wonan for almost 5 months before returning back to me and our daughter. It was everything I had prayed for as being a family and raising our daughter together and serving God together as a family was my greatest hearts desire. All was going well till he met a girl at work. He fell inlove instantly and ledt two weeks later to move in with her. Leaving me pregnant and with a two year old that has not seen her father for almost 3 months now. He wants nothing to do with the unborn baby and refuses to admit that he exists.
He is now very happy with this woman and they are already talking about getting married and having children of their own. He has started reading the bible and has stoped usimg drugs. This girl seems to be changing him for the better. All nice but I am still stuck alone, raising our daughter on my own and struggling to put food on the table, I am pregnant with a child that will be born eithoit even knowing his fathers voice.
God is blessing him and this girl that stole him away knowing he had a family with so much and she has the opportunity to have the best of my ex and I just had the man that used me and never loved me or our child. This man and woman are being rewarded and I am struggling to make ends meat. Where is God for me and my children. Isn't it Gods will for a morher and father to raise their children together as a family unit? Why would God let him cine back into my life just to make me pregnant and leave again. Leaving another baby freling unloved and rejected. Why put a two year old through the pain of losing her father again.
I am happy that he is seeking God and that she is such a wonderfull woman, but I wonder what Gods word really mean as his word is for a farher anf mother to raise their children together. I gave asked God to help me not love my ex and to help me find a man that would be a father to my children, I am contemplating killing myself as I feel I don't deserve love and happiness. Brian was a monster to me and our child but for this girl he knows 3 months for her he is changing everything so he can be the man she deserves. Where is God? God is a good defense attorney but it seems like he is on the side of the man that has abandoned his children and the woman that stole another womans husband and father to her children. My daughter of almost 3 believes that God will bring her daddy back, but her prayers are also just going unheard.
U want to believe that God will safe my family, and that my ex will be a husband to me and farther to our two kids. But I just dont have faith anymore.
Please please please we need prayer.
Well I am 17 weeks pregnant, and have a 2 year old. My children's father left last year march and was in a relationship with another wonan for almost 5 months before returning back to me and our daughter. It was everything I had prayed for as being a family and raising our daughter together and serving God together as a family was my greatest hearts desire. All was going well till he met a girl at work. He fell inlove instantly and ledt two weeks later to move in with her. Leaving me pregnant and with a two year old that has not seen her father for almost 3 months now. He wants nothing to do with the unborn baby and refuses to admit that he exists.
He is now very happy with this woman and they are already talking about getting married and having children of their own. He has started reading the bible and has stoped usimg drugs. This girl seems to be changing him for the better. All nice but I am still stuck alone, raising our daughter on my own and struggling to put food on the table, I am pregnant with a child that will be born eithoit even knowing his fathers voice.
God is blessing him and this girl that stole him away knowing he had a family with so much and she has the opportunity to have the best of my ex and I just had the man that used me and never loved me or our child. This man and woman are being rewarded and I am struggling to make ends meat. Where is God for me and my children. Isn't it Gods will for a morher and father to raise their children together as a family unit? Why would God let him cine back into my life just to make me pregnant and leave again. Leaving another baby freling unloved and rejected. Why put a two year old through the pain of losing her father again.
I am happy that he is seeking God and that she is such a wonderfull woman, but I wonder what Gods word really mean as his word is for a farher anf mother to raise their children together. I gave asked God to help me not love my ex and to help me find a man that would be a father to my children, I am contemplating killing myself as I feel I don't deserve love and happiness. Brian was a monster to me and our child but for this girl he knows 3 months for her he is changing everything so he can be the man she deserves. Where is God? God is a good defense attorney but it seems like he is on the side of the man that has abandoned his children and the woman that stole another womans husband and father to her children. My daughter of almost 3 believes that God will bring her daddy back, but her prayers are also just going unheard.
U want to believe that God will safe my family, and that my ex will be a husband to me and farther to our two kids. But I just dont have faith anymore.
Please please please we need prayer.