I am sorry this is rather long: I have been in mental

[dandan27]

I am sorry this is rather long: I have been in mental and spiritual agony for days. A week ago on Sunday I received a message from my sister that my dear cousin was very sick in intensive care in hospital. She caught a bug and became very dehydrated, that she had had a blood transfusion and she was on dialysis. Her dad had been to see her. He thought she recognized him. The doctors gave her a 50/50 chance of surviving. the message ended with: Not good news, fingers crossed she'll get better.' this was a great shock and I could not really believe it.

I had been chatting with my cousin on facebk for 7 years and we used to have a written correspondenee when we kids in 1980s. In between she had got married, had a son, then split with husband. Despite several invites to visit her with her husband, and then her son and boyfriend, I have never been down, but I said I was praying for them, she once said I was her rock. In response to my sister's message I sent the following message: First I said 'Hi, thanks for letting me know'. Then later I am ashamed to say I wrote: 'Hi, Thanks for your message, sorry to hear about kate, I have looked at trains and could visit her on Monday or Tuesday if it helps, or hopefully if she recovers, I will visit when she back at home, best wishes,'. I am ashamed. It reads so cold and callous. On Monday there was a post on fcbk suggesting my cousin was speaking. I remember feeling such delight. I thought she was on the mend. Nevertheless I ought to have gone down. It was a 3 hour journey on train, but so what. I was worried about where I was going to stay for the night, but another part of me said 'trust God'. going felt the right thing to do, but I didn't go with the flow - this is the story of my life - stuck in an intellectual fog - I have since been told that she was not speaking.in hospital. I think I let a friend down and I think I have let others down too - I think it is because I am bearing a grudge. I think I am unworthy to be ranked amongst my cousins friends. I really feel that if I had got down there I may have helped. If not, then at least I would have tried my best. The bible says to be all things to all men. I feel like a doctor who didn't get to his patient. May God forgive me.

I am 50 but I have not really grown up, and "I had imagined my cousin would be there for years for me" - I put that sentence in inverted commas because I see now that I was being very selfish and not really appreciating her, and I feel that this may explain in part why she is now lost. It is such a huge loss for everyone. When we used to chat on fcbk she once said I made her brain hurt. I thought that was something to be proud about, but now I realise I should have apologized, I was talking too much about intellectual nonsense, and I missed cues to ask her about her health, her family, and by my behaviour I feel I have let my parents down, her dad down, everyone down, I could have done so much better, I feel in my heart of hearts that she is irreplaceable,

 

[Shermarie]

May our loving God hear and answer your prayer request. In Jesus precious name, Amen!! 

Ephesians 3:20 (KJV) Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in

 

[Yeshua37]

Praying!

 

[Bingo]

I am sorry this is rather long: I have been in mental and spiritual agony for days. A week ago on Sunday I received a message from my sister that my dear cousin was very sick in intensive care in hospital. She caught a bug and became very dehydrated, that she had had a blood transfusion and she was on dialysis. Her dad had been to see her. He thought she recognized him. The doctors gave her a 50/50 chance of surviving. the message ended with: Not good news, fingers crossed she'll get better.' this was a great shock and I could not really believe it.

I had been chatting with my cousin on facebk for 7 years and we used to have a written correspondenee when we kids in 1980s. In between she had got married, had a son, then split with husband. Despite several invites to visit her with her husband, and then her son and boyfriend, I have never been down, but I said I was praying for them, she once said I was her rock. In response to my sister's message I sent the following message: First I said 'Hi, thanks for letting me know'. Then later I am ashamed to say I wrote: 'Hi, Thanks for your message, sorry to hear about kate, I have looked at trains and could visit her on Monday or Tuesday if it helps, or hopefully if she recovers, I will visit when she back at home, best wishes,'. I am ashamed. It reads so cold and callous. On Monday there was a post on fcbk suggesting my cousin was speaking. I remember feeling such delight. I thought she was on the mend. Nevertheless I ought to have gone down. It was a 3 hour journey on train, but so what. I was worried about where I was going to stay for the night, but another part of me said 'trust God'. going felt the right thing to do, but I didn't go with the flow - this is the story of my life - stuck in an intellectual fog - I have since been told that she was not speaking.in hospital. I think I let a friend down and I think I have let others down too - I think it is because I am bearing a grudge. I think I am unworthy to be ranked amongst my cousins friends. I really feel that if I had got down there I may have helped. If not, then at least I would have tried my best. The bible says to be all things to all men. I feel like a doctor who didn't get to his patient. May God forgive me.

I am 50 but I have not really grown up, and "I had imagined my cousin would be there for years for me" - I put that sentence in inverted commas because I see now that I was being very selfish and not really appreciating her, and I feel that this may explain in part why she is now lost. It is such a huge loss for everyone. When we used to chat on fcbk she once said I made her brain hurt. I thought that was something to be proud about, but now I realise I should have apologized, I was talking too much about intellectual nonsense, and I missed cues to ask her about her health, her family, and by my behaviour I feel I have let my parents down, her dad down, everyone down, I could have done so much better, I feel in my heart of hearts that she is irreplaceable,

"We should never let the sun set with any 'resentments'.

And we should never let the sun rise without first checking in

with God to help guide us through the day. Being 'God-focused'

in all our affairs, for our weaknesses, we learn to rely more on

our faith in God."

'Praise God'

 

[The Encourager]

May God hear and answer your prayer request.

Praise the Lord, for His mercy endures forever. Oh, give thanks to the Lord, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever. Oh, give thanks to the God of heaven! For His mercy endures forever.

Prayer Focus: God I ask You in Jesus’ name, have mercy on me. Bless me with Shalom. Strengthen me in the Lord.  Encourage me to fulfill my purpose.  Don’t let me give up, but press on to receive my blessings, walk in my purpose, and the victory You have ahead for me.  God all that I have asked of You to do for me in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of this prayer and all those I love and care about. God in Jesus’ name, bless each of us  to receive  Your mercy and shalom.   God forever honor this prayer over each of our lives.  Thank You, Thank You, Thank  You Lord Jesus. Amen.
 

Shalom  means safety, rest, prosperity, wholeness, welfare, completion, fullness, soundness, well-being, nothing broken, nothing missing, and peace.  Mercy  means compassion, forgiveness, kindness, sympathy, pity, grace, generosity, leniency.  God’s mercy is rooted in His love for us.

 

[tina1]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

Thank you for giving us the privilege to pray on your behalf. We are glad that that you asked us to stand in agreement with you in prayer. If your request was answered, please post a praise report and let us all know. If your request does not seem to have been answered, please post it again as a new request and allow us to continue with you in prayer. We all hope that our prayers are answered in the way that we want. Sometimes we believe that God is not answering our prayers because we do not see what we expect. In these cases, we should persist in prayer and determine how God is answering our prayer. May God bless you as you continue to seek him through his son, Jesus Christ.

 

[123]

Psalm 59: You are my strength, I sing praise to you; you, God, are my fortress, my God on whom I can rely. May the Lord wrap his arms around you and keep you at peace. Believe!