I'm sorry to learn about your anger and disappointment at God - - I can understand your feelings, friend. Sending prayers for you, asking the Lord to touch you with His healing hand and reveal His loving presence to you in a special way. Grace and peace to you.
I was injured recently and I struggled with feelings of anger and abandonment toward God too. I'm sorry for what you're going through. Jesus does understand your suffering. He suffered more than we will ever have to so we could know everlasting life, peace, and joy with him in eternity. Sometimes we think dying on the cross was somehow not that hard for Jesus, because he's God's son. We forget he was fully man too. We don't realize how devastating it was for him emotionally and physically. The idea alone was so frightening/devastating to him that he had to wrestle his flesh into obedience, to the point of his pores bleeding. He begged God to take the cup away from him. On the cross, he didn't have the grace and comfort Christian martyrs have, when the Father removed his presence. "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?" The Father was thinking of you when he sent his only begotten son to die on the cross. And still, the Lord's thoughts towards you are for good, not evil. Please don't be discouraged.
