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sunshine89
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Now that I am getting closer to the Lord I am being tested in all aspects of my life. The people who I thought loved me are be little me . Me and my boyfriend broke up we been together for 4 years it has been a constant battle of emotional abuse; sadly I depended on him for transportation and income so I stayed with him for so long. I was pregnant for him years back and I had a deadly miscarriage and today he called me fat and told me I never deserve to ever have children. All I could do is cry I constantly worry about not being able to conceive or go a full pregnancy because of medical problems. I finally decided to leave him for good but I don t know how I am going to make it financially . I ve been applying to jobs but no luck my mom and little sister is going on and on about how I don't have a job yet , how I gained so much weight or look ugly in my clothes because I am not thin anymore. I cry just about ever night I do not know what to do . I have nothing and to make it worst I feel like nothing. I feel all alone .