Haroldalaza
Disciple of Prayer
I am sad to tell you all that my partner of 13 years, Eddie whom I regularly prayed for due to his alcoholism died two weeks ago. I was helping him and we were still best friends. He'd moved around the corner with his mother. She had approached me for help because when I met Eddie he was on a bottle of vodka a day. Out of 13 years we had 11 really happy ones, and as I lost my family one by one he was there for me always. So I felt duty bound to help him with his drinking. I was taking him some bits and pieces and the police coroners van was outside. His brother who was vile to him and to me was outside so I thought to be fair it was the mum. I was all confused and he called me over and told me he'd gone. My first response was where? He has died and hadn't even reached fifty. His birthday was to be on the 1st November the same day as my grandson. So that's going to be bitter sweet. So I'm lost. Since I lost all my family I have pushed everyone away and spent time on my own or with God. Now I feel like I'm losing it. After losing my entire family I'm so unsure of anything right now. I would like to ask for prayers to restore my faith fully. I find it hard to grasp it. I know He is there for me but why so many deaths and loss? One thing has happened people I've fell out with have been kind and so on. It's taken this to realise how much I've hidden away. Scared of loving again because of the loss. I have no mum, sisters, brothers, aunts, uncles and some friends to ring to share my loss. They've gone too. I ask from the bottom of my heart for your prayers today and for the next few months at least. We don't have a funeral date as he is having to go through an autopsy. He was having seizures due to alcohol abuse but was trying very hard to get himself sorted. We were planning a little trip together when he was feeling better. So Father for all the people I've prayed for on here, for all the asking of Jesus to comfort them I ask now that You listen to my prayers and help me. I have been left in debt and that's the last thing I need to think about yet it's not happening. I would love to have paid for his funeral. I can't at the moment.God bless anyone who reads this and prayers for me. Thank you all Suzy
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