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I am recently unemployed because of a costly error at my last job. This tops off the difficulty I've been having with my wife for the past several years. It was quieted down a bit before I got fired, but this thing has stirred up the mess all good and fresh. I'm becoming weary myself, more and more intolerant of her nagging, mocking, and cursing, to the point where I warned her that if she laid her hands on me again in a violent nature she might end up in the hospital. I'm not a violent person, but I was telling God, "Look here, Lord; I'm ready to knock her out." Today she asked me about when I was going to take care of certain unemployment necessities and I replied to her in a very calloused manner that started an argument that lasted (I think) about two hours. She has this way of going around and around in circles with the things she says. I keep saying, "Lord Jesus, help me to shut up, I'm going to shut my mouth." It seems like once she starts up, she won't stop. Then I get to the point where I'm so extremely annoyed that I say something to point out the stupidity of what she's saying (stupidity is me even doing that). This is emotionally exhausting. Over a year ago I almost moved out, but she begged me to stay. I complied; I didn't really WANT to leave anyway. I'm at that point again, but now she isn't against it, rather there's the issue of the money. My hope is that time away from each other will allow us to cool down a bit, but she's so bitter I'm afraid that will be the end, not just a break. She has a multitude of health issues, including a blood disorder which requires her to live on a medication called Coumadin, degenerative spinal discs, and a condition that she believes to be Interstitial Cystitis (it has to do with her urinary bladder, and it's much like having a chronic infection). Add to this that she has been having dreams of me doing cruel things to her (she won't say what) and dreams about demons who follow me around deceiving me into thinking I'm serving God in order to split up our marriage.
I ask that the Lord Jesus would grant me a decent-paying job (I have one specifically in mind at Smucker's here in my hometown) to be able to properly support all of us (we have a 15-year old daughter). I also ask for healing for my wife (Denise is her name). I'm asking that the Lord Jesus would push away the enemy from her dreams and that HE would speak to her in them. I'm asking for a restored tolerance in my heart and mind as well. Give me back my household, filthy devils, in Jesus' name!!!
I ask that the Lord Jesus would grant me a decent-paying job (I have one specifically in mind at Smucker's here in my hometown) to be able to properly support all of us (we have a 15-year old daughter). I also ask for healing for my wife (Denise is her name). I'm asking that the Lord Jesus would push away the enemy from her dreams and that HE would speak to her in them. I'm asking for a restored tolerance in my heart and mind as well. Give me back my household, filthy devils, in Jesus' name!!!