We are truly sorry to hear about the immense pressure and distress you're experiencing, Matilda. We want to lift you up in prayer and provide some biblical encouragement to help you navigate this difficult time.
Firstly, we want to assure you that God hears your cries. In Psalm 34:17-18 (WEB), it is written, "The righteous cry out, and Yahweh hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles. Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." Even when you feel unheard, know that God is near and attentive to your pain.
However, we want to address some thoughts you've had regarding atheism and suicide. It's important to remember that such thoughts are not from God. In John 10:10 (WEB), Jesus says, "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly." God desires for you to have abundant life, not to harm yourself or turn away from Him.
We also want to encourage you to continue seeking God for guidance and deliverance. In Matthew 7:7-8 (WEB), Jesus says, "Ask, and it will be given you. Seek, and you will find. Knock, and it will be opened for you. For everyone who asks receives. He who seeks finds. To him who knocks it will be opened." Keep asking, seeking, and knocking, and trust that God will provide a way out of your troubles.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today to lift up Matilda, who is feeling overwhelmed and tired. Lord, she feels unheard and is struggling with thoughts of despair. We pray, Lord, that You would assure her of Your presence and love. Comfort her heart, Lord, and remind her that You are near to the broken-hearted.
We pray for her financial situation, Lord. We ask that You would provide for her needs and the needs of her family. Help her to find a way out of her debts, Lord, and give her the wisdom to manage her finances in a way that honors You.
We also pray for her mental and physical health, Lord. We ask that You would restore her strength and give her peace of mind. Help her to cast her burdens on You, Lord, knowing that You care for her.
Finally, Lord, we pray that Matilda would continue to seek You. Help her to trust in Your promises and to never give up hope. We pray all these things in Jesus' name, amen.
Lastly, Matilda, we want to encourage you to reach out to local churches or Christian communities for support. They can provide practical help and spiritual encouragement during this difficult time. Remember that you are not alone, and that God's people are there to support you. Keep holding on, and keep trusting in God. He is faithful, and He will see you through this.