Kieroran
Disciple of Prayer
I am not sure how to start this, I have indulged in sinful and unhealthy thoughts and feelings over the last year or so. And I haven’t been the servant of God that I should be. I do not feel worthy of prayers, or God’s mercy the way I’ve acted, thought, and felt. I please pray to God for my morality and the apathy to anger I have felt. My grandmother recently passed away, and my mother and her had a very strained & hard relationship at times from her childhood and to adulthood. I please pray to God for forgiveness for the apathy I’ve felt, I know it’s not right and selfish of me to make this time about me when she’s the one who has passed. I pray that God forgives me for the fit of anger I had of screaming her name and saying horrible things to her the next morning after her passing. I pray that God also guides her during this time and she finds peace and our souls can work out some forgiveness and understanding through Him. I pray that God guides me through the rest of my life and puts me where I need to be in some form of doing His work on earth and finds the career I need to be in. I feel guilty constantly asking for different prayers but I always pray that God sends me an old friend I haven’t talked to in a long time. I could really use their presence and feeling right now and would love to catch up and learn how they’re doing. Please dear God, please. I ask for Sonnet, Hannah, or Emma to reach out to me. I feel so lonely during this time. I miss them. I want to feel like I’m not the only one who sees them as a friend. I don’t want to be the first one to reach out to them anyway. Please God. Please.