Renaldrofay
Disciple of Prayer
I am Monica from India. I got used to sexting because of my 1st relationship and after that ended , I fell into cycle of relationships. Although I wanted the relationship to have a future, in the last 2 cases the guy ended up marrying somebody else. It came as unexpected. God has done it for my own good. But there were sinful thought patterns, anger, self hatred due to rejection. Most of the thoughts were lies from the evil which told me I am unworthy, undeserving and therefore they left me. I cannot take that as an excuse but I started visiting online chat sites looking for love, affection and lusts if flesh. It has become a repeated cycle. Every single time that happens I am devasted inside. Its all depression and sobbing and guilt. God has been merciful , I don't know the count of times He has forgiven me. But it is clearly stated that we cannot consider grace as a license to sin. I want to turn away from this path right now and today. There is lot of emotional pain it brings in and more than that am getting distant from God. Could you all please pray that I have deliverance from negative thought patterns and God's mercy be upon me and also that I rise again and never fall like David in this area. Please brothers and sisters pray for me.