Renaldrofay
Disciple of Prayer
I am ### from ###. I got used to sexting because of my 1st relationship and after that ended, I fell into a cycle of relationships. Although I wanted the relationship to have a future, in the last 2 cases the guy ended up marrying somebody else. It came as unexpected. God has done it for my own good. But there were sinful thought patterns, anger, self-hatred due to rejection. Most of the thoughts were lies from the evil which told me I am unworthy, undeserving and therefore they left me. I cannot take that as an excuse but I started visiting online chat sites looking for love, affection and lusts of the flesh. It has become a repeated cycle. Every single time that happens I am devastated inside. It's all depression and sobbing and guilt. God has been merciful, I don't know the count of times He has forgiven me. But it is clearly stated that we cannot consider grace as a license to sin. I want to turn away from this path right now and today. There is a lot of emotional pain it brings in and more than that am getting distant from God. Could you all please pray that I have deliverance from negative thought patterns and God's mercy be upon me and also that I rise again and never fall like David in this area. Please brothers and sisters pray for me.