I am here praying for everyone of you I know what it feels like to go through something that seems as it is never ending I know how it feels to not be able to fit a bill medical bill school fees electricity bill I know what it feels like being spiritually attacked and know exactly how your body feels I know what it feels like not to be loved from a child to adulthood I am now 34 I can't even laugh because I am so scared at times thinking the devil will attack don't be happy stay focus keep your head down mind your own business I know what it feels like to overthink I know what it feels like to be depressed to be humiliated here we are have no choice my apartment is for viewing for any tenant because it is the landlord right to display the apartment whether or not you can or can not pay your rent I am so scared I do not wish for anyone to see how poor I live how we store things or clothes where we sleep etc. I do pray that she has a heart I do pray God just see me one day and favours us praying and staying focus while the devil attacks is so hard but worth it in the end how long is too long when will this end for me and the sad part I have 4 children that the sad part how can I stop poverty from my generation I need devine healing devine order devine intervention I need a miracle I need my daddy just to hold me and tell me everything will be ok I need one night of sleeping without worrying what more should I do prayer warriors please education me this is coming from a mother that is trying please