Matilda.tilda
Disciple of Prayer
Exhausted and drained, I'm struggling to find hope. For what feels like an eternity, I've been praying for the same thing, but each passing day brings more challenges. My circumstances continue to worsen, and my mental health suffers. I am taking care of my sick parents and my two little sisters. And because of frequent health problems of my family now my monthly dues is twice as i earn. I am lost and exhausted. I have prayed for open door, mental clarity and guidance but it’s as if the Lord has forsaken me. I walk on faith and firmly believe that God will provide before but now when people told me to keep praying and that God will provide i am offended by it. I can’t even afford to fill my stomach or take my mom to the hospital as she’s been complaining about headaches for a month. Now it’s new month again and i know that from tomorrow I’ll be harassed and mentally tortured by my lenders again and i don’t really know what to do. I hope at least God can give me guidance so that i can figure things out even if the storm didn’t disappear but i felt so unanswered even after a year and i have misfortune after misfortune. I don’t live in a place where you can get assistance so i am lost. Right now i feel like dying so at least my family can collect insurance money. Witnessing others' answered prayers and testimonies, which once brought me joy, now fills me with heartache and envy. I'm losing my grip on life, and the weight of my struggles is suffocating. In this darkest moment, I humbly ask for your prayers.