Hilasmeira
Humble Servant of All
I am currently going through a very difficult period of time in my life. I am in seminary school and this is supposed to be the best time of my life because I love what I am studying. But, instead, this is the worst time. I am currently living in a hotel. My parents and I do not have a home. We are struggling to find a home and we are unable to because we have pets. I have eight cats that I rescued. I began rescuing them when I was in high school. Having them has helped me through depression, anxiety, self-harm, earing disorders and a number of things. They are a part of our family but no one seems to understand this. I have a long history of being bullied. When I began rescuing our cats, they gave me the space that I needed to heal from being bullied. But now, because we are unable to find a home, I am in a situation where I am being bullied again. The home that we stayed in prior to living in the hotel was one where I experienced a lot of bullying. I unfortunately still have to go to that house when I am feeding my cats as we are unable to take them with us. Because of what I went through at that house, I have had a history of being involved in witchcraft, the occult and the new age. When I was at my lowest, I reached out to these things because I thought that they could help me and keep me safe. But they only led me further into trouble. Because of my time experimenting with those things, the attacks that I have experienced from other people have gotten worse. I experience constant spiritual warfare. I am at a place now where I feel that God is healing me but I still am experiencing a lot of the spiritual warfare that I was experiencing at the beginning of my journey back to Christ. I want to be able to enjoy my time as a seminary student. I want my parents and I to have a home. Please pray for us. The weight of all these things is beginning to become unbearable. Thank you.