You are loved! Not just by us, but by our Heavenly Father. This is a very hard trial you are going through. It will bring you closer to Him. Look inside yourself and ask if you have any ongoing sin or transgressions in your heart. Make sure you confess them and repent of them. And after that, pray to our Father to deliver you from these afflictions. To restore your relationship with Him. I am also going through a trial. My family is torn apart. Iโve confessed of all my sins that I could ever think of Iโm doing, forgiven people, repented and God has convicted me of my sin. I am ever so close to Him now and am patiently waiting for the reconciliation. He has a perfect plan for your life. Trust in Him and do not doubt. In Jesus name. Amen.