I am alone

[Valathyse]

Some time back, I believed where God had led me to, God had reasons for me. Though my life was unsatisfying, I struggled to find the joy I once embraced. Because of hardship, I began to make poor choices, small ones at first, and then slightly larger ones over time. I abandon my family to leave in a strange land, exile myself from home and embraced Christianity. I recall moments where I caught a glimpse of hope, yet I found myself constantly returning to my dark place. I was slowly breaking apart, piece by piece. I was in the pit of despair. A Christian missionary gave me so much hope in christ.

In the midst of this darkness I began to question if following Jesus was the path I should continue to walk. I had sought after God in pursuit of joy, hope, love(John 3:16) and above all, eternal life. I felt misled as my expectations continued to be thwarted. All around me I had people who made fun of me because of my Christian faith. I had abandoned my home, my family and friends for the cross.

I am a failure. I thought that I was not alone and God will provide a way out for me. I thought my dark season was a test of faith to show me what’s really inside of me. I feel misled and maybe I misunderstood the scripture. And as the apostle Paul pointed out, these tests or trials are common to man. That was what gave me the assurance that I was not the only Christian who felt like I did, and surely wasn’t a failure because of the difficult time. I thought that I was in good company. I had confidence that rescue is coming. My rescue is dramatic, it didn’t happen at all. It looked like I over expected in Christianity.

The second thing I misled myself of was that I had live in certainty that He is at work, even in the mist dangerous time(John 5:17)

Now I feel overwhelmed by the burdens I carried and I really want to know if truly I needed God, and if he is good? Just like Peter, I want to ask this question “To whom shall i go? If I chose to give up on God, where would I go?”



And the truth is, my answer was “nowhere.” There are a remarkable number of things in my life that I cannot “fix”. I cannot go back home because I betrayed Islam

I cannot gave a job because I don’t believe in Islam, I cannot gave help from anywhere because no one knows me and no one is ready to take risk on me. I have no ability on my own fir a better future.

These situations made me realize how much my choices have mess up my life.

I read from the scripture that Jesus has the words of eternal life. He has words that go beyond me. His story is greater than my own, and if I’m being honest, I have nowhere to go and the scripture has destined me to torment and suffering.

My bigger view of God is that he is gracious, loving, and patient. He can handle our doubts, and is present even in the moments when we want like mine now but where is he in my life? Am I from a curse family?

Is my background affecting God care and love for me?

I am just alone

 

[Articles]

Valathyse, we understand your feelings of despair and loneliness. We want to remind you that even in the darkest times, God is always there for us. Let us pray together and seek His guidance.

Firstly, we are concerned that you mentioned you feel alone and that God has not provided a way out. We must remember that God promises to be with us always: "Be strong and courageous. Don’t be afraid or scared of them; for Yahweh your God himself is who goes with you. He will not fail you nor forsake you." (Deuteronomy 31:6 WEB).

You also mentioned that you feel like a failure and that your expectations in Christianity were not met. It's important to remember that our faith is not about our expectations being met, but about trusting in God's plan for us. As the Apostle Paul wrote, "We are hard pressed on every side, yet not crushed; perplexed, yet not in despair; pursued, yet not forsaken; struck down, yet not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body." (2 Corinthians 4:8-10 WEB).

You asked if God is truly good and if you need Him. We want to assure you that God is indeed good. The Psalmist wrote, "Give thanks to Yahweh, for he is good, for his loving kindness endures forever." (Psalm 136:1 WEB). And yes, we all need God. He is our creator, our savior, and our sustainer.

Regarding your feeling that your background might be affecting God's care and love for you, we want to assure you that God's love is not affected by our backgrounds. The Apostle Paul wrote, "For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." (Romans 8:38-39 WEB).

Let us pray:

"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you today to lift up Valathyse. They feel alone, overwhelmed, and doubtful of Your goodness. Please remind them of Your ever-present love and care. Help them to trust in Your plan, even when their expectations are not met. Give them the strength to endure their current trials and the faith to believe that You are always with them. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."

We encourage you to hold onto God's promises and to continue seeking Him. He is faithful and will never forsake you. If you feel like you've strayed from His path, remember that He is always ready to welcome you back with open arms. As the parable of the prodigal son teaches us, God rejoices when we return to Him.

 

[Ruffgernon]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[justinvd]

I have prayed for you.

Call out to Jesus in your need. The son of God, Messiah! He loves you and cares for you. He can make a way!

 

[usha rani]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Jillsaint]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

Thank you for giving us the privilege to pray on your behalf. We are glad that that you asked us to stand in agreement with you in prayer. If your request was answered, please post a praise report and let us all know. If your request does not seem to have been answered, please post it again as a new request and allow us to continue with you in prayer. We all hope that our prayers are answered in the way that we want. Sometimes we believe that God is not answering our prayers because we do not see what we expect. In these cases, we should persist in prayer and determine how God is answering our prayer. May God bless you as you continue to seek him through his son, Jesus Christ.