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praysite-1647
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i am 19 years old and i have a really soft heart. I met this guy when i was 17 years old and from the first time i met him i fell in love with him. we have broken up a couple times and everytime i pray that if it is in Gods will let us get back together and he always calls me back and we end up back together. But everytime we would break up it was always something that went wrong in the relationship and just recently he broke up with me again but it is different this time. well about a month ago he got a job with a Jehovah witness and his beliefs started to change but he didnt change into a Jehovah witness. and we had some disagreements about the beliefs and his boss didnt like that too much. i feel like his boss had a lot to do with the break up. after about a week he started to say that God talks to him. He said that he asked God to give him a sign that he was suppose to marry me and said that God did give him a sign and that God had told him i was withchild. when we found out that i wasnt pregnant his feelings changed towards me. and just two weeks ago he broke up with me and said that it isnt in Gods will that we are meant to be together. and that is how it is different this time. we could fix the negative things in the realationship but i cant change Gods will or his belief that it isnt in Gods will that we are not meant to be. in my heart i dont believe that it is truely over. i pray everyday that if it is in Gods will that we are meant to be that we get back together. we live together but even though he doesnt want to be with me he dont want me to leave but wants me to be in a seperate bedroom and i respect that. but i am just so depressed because i love him sooo much and he is going to keep believing that it isnt in Gods will that we are meant to be just because i wasnt pregnant. But what he dont realize is that we dont need a child right now. i dont have a job right now and we can bearly support ourselves. we had to go yesterday to the crisis ministies to get help with the power bill because they was going to cut it off yesterday if we didnt do something to pay it. Thanks be to God it got paid and we still have power.(God is good). So it maybe meant for us to be together but not to have a child right now because of our situation. and God sees that we couldnt support a child so it maybe a blessing that we dont have a child right now. please pray for God to convict his heart. i hope God is the one telling me that it isnt truely over instead of my head because that is what i want. please pray for me and my family because my mom is really worried about me because of my situation. she wants me to be happy and i call her every single day crying because of this situation. i have even prayed that God would call my name and he hasnt answered but i know that is because he has better plans. and i and hoping the plans are that we get back together. i need all the prayer and friends i can get. i have my e-mail address so that if you have time that hopefully you will contact me. i need so many good people in my life right now. please. thank you
