I allowed my selfishness to consume me and my ...

[Anonymous]

I allowed my selfishness to consume me and my life. I focused on the wrong things and ignored what really mattered. I took my husband for granted and led him to believe that I did not love, respect, appreciate, or need him to be a part of my life. I led him to believe that I did not support him and back all of his decisions. I wasn't there to help him and encourage him in the most challenging and stressful time of his life. I understand why he doesn't think I can be there for him when times get harder. I understand that he feels our marriage is broken and non-repairable. I understand that he doesn't trust me to be a better wife. I understand that he doesn't have it in him to try to fix this while dealing with all that he has going on in his life. I want him to be happy and fulfilled. I don't want to force his love for me. He has given up and I understand, but it hurts. I am so broken I don't know what to do. I want to be selfless and give him everything he needs, even if it is to not have me grow with him any longer. But how do I take the pain away? How do I continue to live without him? I am so sorry, I can never take back the pain I have caused. I fear that I will live with this pain and regret for the rest of my life and while I feel that I deserve it right now for hurting my love, I don't think I can bear this pain forever. How do I live with myself? How do I continue to grow to be a better person if I can never forgive myself for what I have done?

 

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Lord, we thank you that you for the blessings that you have given us. Help us to honor you in every part of our lives. We place this request at your throne. Please hear and reply according to your perfect will and timing. Grant us the peace to know that you are in control. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[Cheryl "The Earthly Angel"]

Holy God and loving Father, I consciously place my fears, worries, anxieties, and burdens in your hands. I know that I have so little power to change the outcome of these events and I trust that you will work what is pleasing to you, and best for me, out of these situations. Forgive me for my anxious thoughts and for letting my own worry become an idol that robs you of my full trust. Strengthen and empower me to trust you more by the power and presence of your Spirit. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen

 

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