Walkwithgod
Good and Faithful Servant
Today is day 2 of our separation. I haven't really talked to him and he has not asked to talk to our kids. I found out he had been lying to me again about many things. I don't even know who the man I married is anymore. All I can think of is that he is probably doing things behind my back. It hurts so bad. I sometimes feel that maybe this was not a marriage that God brought together and the other part says that he really needs God badly. That he needs salvation. I found some more stuff that shows he doesn't seem to want to be working on the marriage and is being influenced by ungodly influences. I don't even know if it's worth saving or if it can be saved. Please pray that God will guide me and help me to be strong. My family members are saying that I should leave him because he will not change. Please pray that God will convict him a real way and that he will hear his conscience. He said that he has been depressed and falling back into it. Pray that God will drive those demons of depression away and that my husband will stay faithful to me. If not, pray that everything will be revealed. The more I think about it the more I feel that he was never in this marriage. I feel no love, respect or trust from him. He has never confessed anything except maybe once, the other times he got caught. I am trying hard to stay focused on Christ and the pain just hurts so bad. I really feel that maybe it just wasn't meant to be.