Aluarris
Disciple of Prayer
the guy I been dating for almost 3 years, pray for his humbeleness. God softens his heart. Pray for my strength and peace. Heal my broken heart. I want to let go and not feel anything anymore. I’m tired of him leaving me into pieces everyday. Broken. He comes and goes but won’t stay. I don’t know what he wants from me. I know I want what we used to have. I just can’t take this pain anymore. I need to let go and move on because all it’s doing it burning a hole in my heart. Please I don’t want to hurt anymore. All my life I have never met someone who hasn’t hurt me and I trusted this one. We actually lived together 2 years, big step for me. And he moved out. We talk he comes and goes but it’s not the same. We distant. I just want a family. Someone who is ready for marriage and I’m not going to find that until I have the strength to let him go. I’m almost 40 and I have never been married never given my daughter a father and I know it’s all my fault. She is 16 and has never had a dad. I never wanted her to grow up this way. She is ok and doesn’t bother her but it does me. It’s not fair to her and all her friends have a dad. I don’t think he loves me. I don’t know if this is a way to control me. But I need Gods strength. This man used to be so good to us. He left because of a bond he stills has with his ex wife. He doesn’t see he needs to let it go and it ruined us. I don’t know where to go who to talk to. I don’t know what to do. All I know is we spent yesterday together and nothing felt right anymore. Everything feels so wrong. Then he left. Left me hurting again. He used to love me and want to show me that but now he doesn’t . I’m really hurting.