EDWIN PINTO
Humble Prayer Warrior
My hunger and thirst for God is declining 25 years of spiritual warfare in me is making me exhausted both physically and mentally for 25 years I have only heard have "faith" , "patience " , "wait "and "God's timing" whereas in bible Jesus has done miracles even before His time had come example water to wine ( Jesus said His time has not come yet he did) , the demons in a man screaming why have you come before time to torment us , brothers of Jesus inviting Him for the festival but Jesus says my time has not come but after they leave Jesus follows them , it was not the season for figs to grow but before time Jesus appears and curses the fig tree My mother spent her last few years only in prayer for me and died during the eucharistic celebration , my 2 sisters prayed earnestly for me and are now separated from me , past 25 years countless priests , pastors , preachers and gifted people prayed for me and above all of them I'm praying yet my life is going from worst to disaster. If my prayer are short of faith then what about so many people praying for me around the world , did Jesus not see the faith of people who carried a paralyzed man and dropped him down from rooftop to be healed and Jesus seeing their faith healed the man then if my faith is nothing then what about those who are praying for me .25 years isn't it a long time to say " wait " , " patience " Nothing is happening in my life not an inch I'm moving forward past 22 months . huge Financial crisis , unemployment , suicidal tendency , health problems , family life disastrous wife and young daughter waiting for my death so that they can get my pension and final settlement from my Gov't department where I retired in 2020 Some people due to their selfish desires become atheist and some because God doesn't answers their prayers with frustration they become atheist , I fear due to my very long suffering and God's silence will it make me to withdraw from God Word of God says my body is the temple of God and Satan has destroyed my body , soul and mind for past 55 years , as Jesus said destroy this body and I will raise it in 3 days , let Jesus my savior raise my destroyed body , soul and mind in next 3 days so that once again my body becomes the temple of God , I surrender my life and my family completely to my God through His son Jesus with the fellowship of the Holyspirit