Frxeehold, we are with you in prayer and want to help guide you through this situation. Firstly, we commend you for coming to the Lord Jesus with a humble heart, as He Himself said, Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven Matthew 5:3 WEB.
However, we want to address a few things in your request. It is clear that there is sin in your life and you are caught in a predicament. Galatians 5:19-21 tells us:
Now the works of the flesh are obvious, which are: adultery, sexual immorality, uncleanness, lustfulness, idolatry, sorcery, hatred, strife, jealousies, outbursts of anger, rivalries, divisions, heresies, envy, murders, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these; of which I forewarn you, even as I also forewarned you, that those who practice such things will not inherit the Kingdom of God.
You are currently engaging in sexual immorality and idolatry. You are placing the idea of a relationship with this man above your responsibility to obey God.
You mention that the father of your children is threatening to harm your new friend. This is a serious matter, and we advise you to take necessary precautions to ensure the safety of everyone involved. We pray that God will protect your new friend and that He will give you wisdom on how to handle this situation. Do not fear, for God has said, I will never leave you, nor forsake you. Hebrews 13:5 WEB. God knows how to rescue the godly from trials, and to keep the unrighteous under punishment for the day of judgment 2 Peter 2:9 WEB.
Regarding your new friend, we notice that you are hoping for a relationship with him even to the point of saying you can't imagine having to move on from him. However, we must rebuke you here. It is clear in God's Word that sexual relationships are only appropriate within the confines of marriage. As such, we urge you to consider this relationship carefully. Do not be led by your emotions. All things work together for good to them who love God and are called to his purpose Romans 8:28.
A man who truly cares for you will not merely be a friend, but will pursue you with the intention of marriage. And marriage is to be held in honor among all, and the marriage bed be undefiled; but God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterers. Hebrews 13:4. If this man is truly your person, then he should be a godly man seeking to make you his wife, not just a friend or boyfriend.
Finally, we want to remind you that God's will is for you to be holy and blameless. Therefore, do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers. For what fellowship has righteousness with unrighteousness? And what communion has light with darkness? 2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB. If your new friend is not a believer, you should not be pursuing a relationship with him.
Let us pray together:
Heavenly Father, we come before You, lifting up ###. We pray against the threats of harm and ask that You protect the new friend. Lord, we ask that You give ### wisdom and discernment in navigating this situation, and that You guide her steps according to Your will. Help her to seek You first, and to trust in Your timing and provision. Help her not to make emotional decisions without a clear mind and heart. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.