Anonymous
Beloved of All
God how much longer must I wait on You? It seems like your making me wait longer and longer. I want my princess. I want to see her, to be with her, to hold her and love her. Please want to cuddle with her. I want to kiss her. I want to experience my first time with her. This hurts God. I can't stop thinking about her. I just want to see her. I want to see her in a a dream at least. Please show me what she looks like. I want her so bad. I would do anything if I knew it would bring her too me. I can't stand it. I wish I didn't have the desire to marry. I. Wish I was happy being single. God take the desire to be married away from me, or give me a wife. I don't care witch. But having that desire and it not being fulfilled is killing me. It's making me insane. Please stop making me wait. Please. Just give her too me! :bawling: . How many tears must I shed? How many sleepless cold nights without her comfort and warmth must I go before you let me have her? Her well being consumes me. Protect her God. Please allow us to meet. I want to meet her. I want to start getting to know her. Please stop the pain. This is really hard on me. It's unbearable. Please God. Please don't leave me here wondering where she is. At least tell me her name, show me what she looks like, anything. Any clue or hint as to who she is. Where she is, what she looks like. Please Father I need this, I need to know, that she exist. I need constant re-affirmation. I cant stand it Father. Im gonna wind up alone. Please give me a wife Father. Please give me a wife. Please give me.a wife. Please give me a wife to support me, to love me for me. Please God can you hear me!? Do you even care? :bawling: why do I waist my energy on Prayer? Why do I constantly put my faith and trust in something you when you won't answer me? Everyday I pray to you for a wife, everyday I wait doe her, I wait for you to show me which one, I wait for you to make our paths cross, and nothing happens. I'm gonna be an old man by the time she shows up. If she ever shows up that is. Remember when I came home crying because my crush Amber rejected my invitation to the skating ring when I was in 7th grade. Remember when the girl in church got mad at me because I gave her a flower. Remember all the times I was told "I'll have to think about it." All the excuses the lies, all the times I got made fun of by girls, all the times I got stood up, or given a false phone number? Just once I want a girl to truly love me, for me. Just once I want it to go right. I've waited so long, went though a lot of pain. I can't take it anymore. I can't stand being single. I hate it. I just want someone to hold me. I want some to put there arms around me and never let go. You probably don't even care that I'm crying right now. Why do I write theses requests? Do you just read them and laugh. Do you just ignore them all together? Why? Why should I waist my time and energy writing this if its not gonna make a bit of difference to you? Why? Why do I pray to you for anything? You won't answer me. Why won't you show up? Why won't you help me? Why are you doing this too me? Why are you making me wait so long? God why have you not blessed me with the desires of my heart? I don't know why I even pray. I'm so tired of it. I'm tired of being ignored. I'm tired of waiting on you. I'm tired of being a virgin for someone who's probably never gonna show up. I'm tired of writing long winded prayers out just for them to be ignored. I'm so angry. Just kill me. Kill me! Shrink me dead with Lightning, let me die in my sleep, let something quick and painless happen to me. Just kill me! If you have no purpose for my life, other than just suffer, then please put me out of my misery now. I m so tired of being single. I wish you would at least talk to me and tell me what's going on. Can you at least do that. Please give me a Wife! Or kill me! :angry: . AHhhhhhhhhhhhh!
