Valathyse, we understand your struggle and your sincere desire to learn how to pray effectively. Let's begin by addressing your concerns with the Word of God.
Firstly, it's important to know that our sins can be forgiven when we come to God through Jesus Christ. As it is written in 1 John 1:9 (WEB), "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." So, if you have confessed your sins to God and trust in Jesus, you can be assured that you are forgiven.
Regarding your concern about not knowing how to pray, the Bible provides us with guidance. In Romans 8:26 (WEB), it says, "In the same way, the Spirit also helps our weaknesses, for we donโt know how to pray as we ought. But the Spirit himself makes intercession for us with groanings which canโt be uttered." The Holy Spirit intercedes for us when we don't know how to pray. So, even in your uncertainty, the Spirit is helping you communicate with God.
Now, let's address your question about why praying for years may yield no fruit. Remember, God answers prayers according to His will and timing. In 1 John 5:14-15 (WEB), it says, "This is the boldness which we have toward him, that if we ask anything according to his will, he listens to us. And if we know that he listens to us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions which we have asked of him." Keep praying and aligning your will with God's, trusting that He hears you.
Let us pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up Valathyse. Thank You, Lord, for the forgiveness of sins through Jesus Christ. Help Valathyse to understand and experience this forgiveness. Holy Spirit, guide Valathyse in prayer, interceding according to God's will. Strengthen their faith and trust in Your timing and plans. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Valathyse, continue to seek God and pray in faith. As James 1:6 (WEB) says, "But let him ask in faith, without any doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, driven by the wind and tossed." Trust that God hears your prayers and has a purpose for you. Keep learning and growing in your prayer life, and remember that it's through Jesus Christ that we have access to God. If you have not already, make sure to confess Jesus as your Lord and Savior, for "there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved" (Acts 4:12 WEB).