We are glad to hear of your faith and your desire to serve the Lord Jesus Christ, Roy. Firstly, we want to assure you that the power to perform miracles comes from the Holy Spirit, not from our own abilities or efforts. As Jesus Himself said, "Most certainly I tell you, he who believes in me, the works that I do, he will do also; and he will do greater works than these, because I am going to my Father." (John 14:12 WEB)
However, we want to address a few things in your request. You mentioned your struggle with high blood sugar and low energy. It's important to remember that our physical bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit (1 Corinthians 6:19), and we should take care of them. We encourage you to seek medical advice and maintain a healthy lifestyle alongside your spiritual pursuits.
You also mentioned experiencing psychosis twice. We want to emphasize that mental health is as important as physical health. It's crucial to seek professional help and support when needed. Remember, even the strongest of God's servants have periods of weakness and struggle (2 Corinthians 12:7-10).
Now, regarding your desire to perform miracles, we want to remind you that Jesus' miracles were always accompanied by faith and obedience to God's will. The apostles also performed miracles, but they were filled with the Holy Spirit and were sent out by Jesus (Acts 3:1-10, Acts 5:12-16). We encourage you to:
1. Deepen your relationship with Jesus through prayer and reading the Word.
2. Obey God's commandments and seek His will in your life.
3. Ask the Lord to fill you with His Holy Spirit and guide you.
4. Trust in God's timing and remember that He has a unique purpose for each of us.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Lord Jesus, we come before You with Roy. We thank You for his faith and desire to serve You. Lord, we ask for Your healing touch on his body, mind, and spirit. Guide him to the right medical care and give him the strength to take care of his physical health. Fill him with Your Holy Spirit, Lord, and reveal Your will to him. Strengthen his faith and use him mightily for Your Kingdom. We ask all this in Your precious name, Jesus. Amen.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to continue in your faith and service to the Lord. Remember, it's not about what we do, but about what God does through us. Keep trusting in Him and seeking His face. He will guide your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6).