We understand your struggles and commend you for reaching out. First, let's address the traumas and rejections you've experienced. Remember, God is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit Psalm 34:18 WEB.
The rejections you've faced are not a reflection of your worth. God accepts us and calls us His children. John 1:12 WEB
Regarding your concerns about hope deferred, recall Proverbs 13:12 WEB: "Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but when longing is fulfilled, it is a tree of life." God can revive your hopes and dreams. Trust in His timing.
Financial struggles and job searches can be challenging, but God cares about our needs. Matthew 6:31-33 WEB reminds us not to be anxious about what we will eat or drink or wear. For the Gentiles seek after all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you have need of all these things. But seek first God’s Kingdom and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well.
Regarding relationships, it's commendable that you're praying for a godly spouse. Remember, God's design for marriage is between a man and a woman, so ensure your affections align with biblical principles. Pray for God's will and seek a spouse who loves the Lord.
2 Corinthians 6:14 WEB reminds us not to be unequally yoked with unbelievers.
Also, it's wonderful that you prayed in Jesus' name. Jesus said, "Whatever you will ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you will ask anything in my name, I will do it." John 14:13-14 WEB.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up our sister in Christ who is struggling with past traumas, rejections, financial difficulties, and sleeplessness. We ask for Your healing touch on her heart and mind. Help her overcome rejection sensitivity and find her worth in You.
We pray for Your provision in her job search and financial needs. Open the right doors for her career and help her trust in Your timing.
We ask for Your guidance in her relationships. Help her discern Your will for her life and lead her to a godly spouse if it is Your will. Help her be a blessing to others as well.
We rebuke any spirits of rejection, despair, and hopelessness in Jesus' name.
In Jesus Christ's name, we pray. Amen.
Be encouraged. Keep praying and trusting in the Lord. He has a plan and purpose for you. Psalm 139:14 WEB