I'm fighting the enemy--who is trying to get me to think on all that is wrong. I am SO BLESSED, and with much more than I deserve. I have great friends, and a support system now, wonderful loving neighbors. Satan keeps trying to distract me.
I have prayed and will continue to obey God's instruction as best I can, but this is their problem (family of origin), and their struggle--each should carry their own load (Galatians 6:5). I am not responsible for the hurt they cause, and what they do or do not do.
This is between them and the Lord. I ask that anyone reading this, please pray my heart is released of this burden. (1 Peter 5:7). So much so that I can go about my day doing what needs to be done, with joy and peace.
I look back and I can see so clearly many things, and how God has been so kind to me.
I want to share this love and blessing with my family, but they seem to hate me for no reason, they treat me with contempt most of the time.
Proverbs 4:23, I have to protect myself. And so much as it depends on ME, be at peace. I have done everything I can do. I am tired of dealing with this.
I don't know everything, so I am tired of driving myself almost crazy trying to figure out why they act the way they do towards me. Only God knows exactly what is going on, so I just need--DESPERATELY to trust Him FULLY. I want to focus on my life, and just allow them to come to their own conclusions, good or bad. I want free of this incessant need to explain myself to them, they just don't see me in a good light, and as far as I can see, and I have asked my husband if he sees something I don't see, and he doesn't either (but maybe he's being nice haha..).
In all seriousness (joking aside), I do think my husband would tell me if I had a blind spot. I also believe that God has revealed a lot to me, to confirm that this not an issue with me, but that they have not dealt with their own issues. I think prayer is the best response, but I want to make sure that my heart is in the right place, and also the battleground of the mind...I don't want to have wrong thinking. So all brothers and sisters here, please, in the name of Christ Jesus, pray for my mind to be completely healed, and to be the mind of Christ, and to never falter again--I believe this can be done through Jesus, he promises so many good things and I hope that you will pray these good things over me in agreement.
I didn't realize how hungry I was for kind words, and regard until God blessed me with it. However, it has made the situation with the family of origin, that much more sad for me.
I'm hoping more breakthrough will come from your prayers here, as I have already seen God deliver me from one of the situations--thank you Lord--and thank you for your prayers here.
Prayers here have made me shed tears of thankfulness and relief, my need is largely WORDS, words mean so much to me. Kind words are refreshing (that is a verse or two in the Bible). I am so thankful for the encouragers God has put in my life, and in this place, thank you Lord!
I have good intentions, I want desperately to do the righteous thing, of this I can be sure, and I have been praying for years, and God is saying "don't grow weary of doing good" but perhaps doing good means some distance; especially emotional distance, please pray for me to have emotional strength and for me to reject any wrong-thinking, and especially God give me protection from provocation--let it be that I always speak life and keep me from repaying evil for evil, but overcome evil with good.
And I especially ask to be free from any and all manipulative tactics, and HEAL MY MIND fully and never allow a foothold for the devil in any way. In the name of Jesus I rebuke any root of bitterness, resentment, or unforgiveness. I forgive, FULLY. Lord willing, I always will, and I know God is for me, He loves me, and it's His will that none should perish and he has plans for me Jeremiah 29. I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I am a new creation.
I pray in the name of Jesus, that all my enemies are unable to provoke me to act in the flesh. Please pray that I can operate in the Holy Spirit. I pray that any strongholds in the families of origin, and any principalities or unclean spirits would be prevented from operating successfully against me. In Jesus' might and precious name, Amen
May God richly bless you, through our Lord, Jesus Christ, Amen.
I have prayed and will continue to obey God's instruction as best I can, but this is their problem (family of origin), and their struggle--each should carry their own load (Galatians 6:5). I am not responsible for the hurt they cause, and what they do or do not do.
This is between them and the Lord. I ask that anyone reading this, please pray my heart is released of this burden. (1 Peter 5:7). So much so that I can go about my day doing what needs to be done, with joy and peace.
I look back and I can see so clearly many things, and how God has been so kind to me.
I want to share this love and blessing with my family, but they seem to hate me for no reason, they treat me with contempt most of the time.
Proverbs 4:23, I have to protect myself. And so much as it depends on ME, be at peace. I have done everything I can do. I am tired of dealing with this.
I don't know everything, so I am tired of driving myself almost crazy trying to figure out why they act the way they do towards me. Only God knows exactly what is going on, so I just need--DESPERATELY to trust Him FULLY. I want to focus on my life, and just allow them to come to their own conclusions, good or bad. I want free of this incessant need to explain myself to them, they just don't see me in a good light, and as far as I can see, and I have asked my husband if he sees something I don't see, and he doesn't either (but maybe he's being nice haha..).
In all seriousness (joking aside), I do think my husband would tell me if I had a blind spot. I also believe that God has revealed a lot to me, to confirm that this not an issue with me, but that they have not dealt with their own issues. I think prayer is the best response, but I want to make sure that my heart is in the right place, and also the battleground of the mind...I don't want to have wrong thinking. So all brothers and sisters here, please, in the name of Christ Jesus, pray for my mind to be completely healed, and to be the mind of Christ, and to never falter again--I believe this can be done through Jesus, he promises so many good things and I hope that you will pray these good things over me in agreement.
I didn't realize how hungry I was for kind words, and regard until God blessed me with it. However, it has made the situation with the family of origin, that much more sad for me.
I'm hoping more breakthrough will come from your prayers here, as I have already seen God deliver me from one of the situations--thank you Lord--and thank you for your prayers here.
Prayers here have made me shed tears of thankfulness and relief, my need is largely WORDS, words mean so much to me. Kind words are refreshing (that is a verse or two in the Bible). I am so thankful for the encouragers God has put in my life, and in this place, thank you Lord!
I have good intentions, I want desperately to do the righteous thing, of this I can be sure, and I have been praying for years, and God is saying "don't grow weary of doing good" but perhaps doing good means some distance; especially emotional distance, please pray for me to have emotional strength and for me to reject any wrong-thinking, and especially God give me protection from provocation--let it be that I always speak life and keep me from repaying evil for evil, but overcome evil with good.
And I especially ask to be free from any and all manipulative tactics, and HEAL MY MIND fully and never allow a foothold for the devil in any way. In the name of Jesus I rebuke any root of bitterness, resentment, or unforgiveness. I forgive, FULLY. Lord willing, I always will, and I know God is for me, He loves me, and it's His will that none should perish and he has plans for me Jeremiah 29. I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I am a new creation.
I pray in the name of Jesus, that all my enemies are unable to provoke me to act in the flesh. Please pray that I can operate in the Holy Spirit. I pray that any strongholds in the families of origin, and any principalities or unclean spirits would be prevented from operating successfully against me. In Jesus' might and precious name, Amen
May God richly bless you, through our Lord, Jesus Christ, Amen.