Anonymous
Beloved of All
I have been praying for some specific things for many years. For God to restore my health and the health of my family, for my desire to be married and have a family of my own (which God put in my heart at a young age).
Recently I was going through something and I came across a note with my prayers written on it. Some of the prayer needs from back then are the very same needs as to what Im still praying for today. The note was from 2009. I remember that I had been praying years before that. Early 2000's for some significant issues in my life.
Reading the note made my heart sink. I felt sick inside. To be praying for things that ARE in God's word for me and to be waiting for over 20 years with no answers doesn't give me any reassurance of God, his love for me and doesn't draw me closer to God but pushes me further away.
Much of my life I've had to contend with significant depression & loneliness. Never really had any friends. I'm socially awkward. Only person to really love me was my dear mother and god took her off this earth not all that long ago. My heart aches deeply. I'm empty without her. Pray my dad is blessed with long, healthy, productive life to see me married and have a family.
NGL, I've had some thoughts (frequently) of leaving this earth and joining mom in heaven. Nobody cares. Not even family. They have more fun talking crap about me to others. I still care about them and pray daily that God protects and heals them of their health needs as well.
I'm not looking for advice here. I've been to counselors. All they want to do is push medication and that's not going to happen for a number of reasons.
I guess what I'm looking for is some prayer warriors to lift me up and pray - believing God will hear and answer my prayers. Restore faith, hope and provide the things he promised to me in his word. Without it, I have no real testimony.
Pray for: Restored and blessed health (me, my family and my pet), marriage and children, hopes/goals/dreams, drive and determination. Financial blessings. Pray God will take away the fatigue and chronic tiredness and pain in my body.
Bless you if you read this and actually pray and not just cut/copy and paste stuff. I see that on so many sites.
Recently I was going through something and I came across a note with my prayers written on it. Some of the prayer needs from back then are the very same needs as to what Im still praying for today. The note was from 2009. I remember that I had been praying years before that. Early 2000's for some significant issues in my life.
Reading the note made my heart sink. I felt sick inside. To be praying for things that ARE in God's word for me and to be waiting for over 20 years with no answers doesn't give me any reassurance of God, his love for me and doesn't draw me closer to God but pushes me further away.
Much of my life I've had to contend with significant depression & loneliness. Never really had any friends. I'm socially awkward. Only person to really love me was my dear mother and god took her off this earth not all that long ago. My heart aches deeply. I'm empty without her. Pray my dad is blessed with long, healthy, productive life to see me married and have a family.
NGL, I've had some thoughts (frequently) of leaving this earth and joining mom in heaven. Nobody cares. Not even family. They have more fun talking crap about me to others. I still care about them and pray daily that God protects and heals them of their health needs as well.
I'm not looking for advice here. I've been to counselors. All they want to do is push medication and that's not going to happen for a number of reasons.
I guess what I'm looking for is some prayer warriors to lift me up and pray - believing God will hear and answer my prayers. Restore faith, hope and provide the things he promised to me in his word. Without it, I have no real testimony.
Pray for: Restored and blessed health (me, my family and my pet), marriage and children, hopes/goals/dreams, drive and determination. Financial blessings. Pray God will take away the fatigue and chronic tiredness and pain in my body.
Bless you if you read this and actually pray and not just cut/copy and paste stuff. I see that on so many sites.