Hlep For Me To Stop Enteritaining Angrer Nor Negative Thoughts

[seanathon]

had a preety terrifyig experience while talking to my parents today i am honestly nneedig help i am scared i am really scared jesus  please i feel like i have been amonster i need help i need understanding and i need calming for the ridiculous anger and bad thoughts that i have had i am sorry for all the short comings i have had  there is alot that is telling me i have failed already that i have lready broken down that i have become a monster to my family please jesus i need help i need the love that i know is in me ofr my family to calmly upwell and beat back the negative that seems to have been plauging me there is alot tryin to tell me i am no good there is alot trying to tell me i am eing tested i just ask that i would not be lead into temptation but deliverd away from evil i am very tired i ask that i would have a helmet  to day, i feel very empty i don twant to become the negative that haunts me from higschool please help my family needs hope please heal me in full so that i may truly be able to just be a help to my family i know there is compassion in me i kow tght it is a b eautiful day also i ask for stillness there is alot of delusional stuff i am feeling very highstrung i would just ask that i could go back to how things were in calmness of my mind when there was hope and joy before the medicine incident jesus i had problems then but i knew  that i was getting through it i knew that each dayt at redlands was getting better that i was getting better honestly i got scared i know that i was scared and i wish i had just trusted before all these nightmares came so i am askinghow i can get away from my bad thoughts in jesus christs name i ajesus christs name i asak that hte healing that i had dat catalina and the assurance that i woudl get thorugh this hhat i have purpose that you love me so much would just really heal my heart right now i dont want ot see weird eye things i simpl ydon tthink they are real and they dont have authority  they dont know me i just want to be able to get back to the calmness i felt when i was prayed for at sophmore year and the happiness i felt and the joy and the togetherness and the wholenesss i felt as a kid and i know you remember  and jesus it is a beautiful day and i ask that i would truly be calmend not just calmed but healed there is alot of brokenneess in more today but i dont want any of the ngativity that has happened today or even yesterday to have any more influence it was rought really rough and i dont want to continue in any of the bad thoughts i know i am getting through this torm jesus i know you hear me and may i calm down because honestly it is a beautiful day noone wishes me harm and i ask that i would simply calm dwon that weird visual or audible hallucinations would not be able to come around any more i know that htis prayer is going to be heard and make it through to the website  that i would calm down that the anger that i felt about 2months ago would simoly no longer have any pulll o n me it owuld not leaea ny marks or scars it would not have any more wounds or compulsive anyhting i just ask for calmness and gentle sight jesus i dont want powers i dont want anything to have compulsive or iolent power over or against me or anyone in this house or anyone i ask for honest help repenting of any of hte wrongs i have done i ask for help and deep healing and calmness like before i had the medicine problem i ask that i would be able to trust like when i sang at laboheme and to be bescape from wahtever compulsion would be trying to hamr me and jesus i ask in that the holy spirit would cal, me and mend me that i would realize now that i am going to be ok that my family is going to be ok that i am deeper and more loving than any of these bad thoguhts and that the badthoughts have no right to attack me nor antyone i ask that i would be reassured by a calm healing gentle dream like when i was a kid and i ask for calming and help today as i go through the day to respect my brother and my parents they are awesome please help me to be mended like before  when i wouldl just see the world normally without flashes of colors, nor compulsions nor weird dots or other dumb things i knw i am not perfect but i need reassurance and i know its a good day an i am going to be ok i ask for help like at rdlands just to be able to trsut without be struggles to just be gentle with teh people i meet and be glad that i able to meet them as a friend i know it is not my merit that allowed me to make those awesome friends there is a part of me that is angry but you know that the anger is not the real me it is a small portion of unrefined self anyway i do ask for calm healing and normal functioning and for happiness and joy to return to this house and i admit that jesus you have stronger help authority i want to be a tool for good today jesus you said that iwould have the tools i need to recover i know that i need to be guided to those tools and to use the tools again i ask for help because i am needing help please wash me  please help me to not nntertain the angry doubts or delusions that have been tryhing to take me down to a cop out i know you can hear me i know you have not abandoned me and i onw that you are stronger than even my shortcoming but i don not ask that i would cop out because you are stronger in fact i need hlep right now in a nono struggle in a calm and gnetle healing that i could be healed while writing this prayer i am worried for sure but i know you are listening i sak that i would b estill after this prayer that in stillness could come a calness like i had before the medicine incident that in stillness i woul d be able to be cal like when i was singing at reptrtory op[era i know you hear and that the memory of repertory opera is stronger than any negativity or beat down that has been trying to mock me and confuse me and i ask that i would not let anything judge me too harshly i ask for help like when i was at the car crash i also ask for calmness today i just want to get some help and reassurance right now because you know what i have been battling with please help it has been a scary situation but i know that job was right hen he said lord i will praise you in this storm what a beautiful day i know that i need calming though right now my life has been a strange one bu ti loved being a kid so mich so much i just want the joy of airelnad to return i know that i am heard i know that alot of things are trying to hurt bu tyou know what i know i am getting through htis in hte name of jesus i pray also jesus please help i dont want to entertain fantasies of power nor eemy attack i dont want to showcase negativity if there is any evil that is trying to hurt my family i just ask that it owuld no longer have any authority  and i know that i am trying to pray right now but i need guidance so i ask in jjesus christs name that i would escape from the cluthces of this bad dream  that i would be grateful and also know that there will be much better to come in this life and thei need help right now i am very tired  i am very tired and i just ask that whatever negativity i may have been doing  would simply not have any more authority in the nam eof jesus i pray i am scared but i know even in my brokenss i mam heard i need guidance please help me to be gnelty pulled away from any of the weird compulsive thoughts may i not be l lost in delusions and please calm me i dont want to be able tto cause weeird effects i dont wnat magic i never wnated magic i ask that i never would even entertainideas of magic nor give into whatever thinks it has magic or hypnotism i know that such things are simply delusional and no authority i am tired but i know i am heard i am going to rest now it is a beautiful day amen

 

[Articles]

Lord, we thank you that you for the blessings that you have given us. Help us to honor you in every part of our lives. We place this request at your throne. Please hear and reply according to your perfect will and timing. Grant us the peace to know that you are in control. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[sharonjoan]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[BLESSITONE]

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