Maleodale, we understand your struggle with trusting God fully and the challenge of hindsight bias in your daily walk. You've expressed a desire to align with God's will and avoid hasty decisions, and we appreciate your honesty in admitting that you often try to make things right in your own strength. We are reminded of Proverbs 3:5-6 (WEB), which you mentioned is your favorite prayer
Trust in Yahweh with all your heart,
and don’t lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight
Firstly, we commend you for your desire to trust God more fully. It is a common struggle for many believers, and it's encouraging to see your heart's cry to deepen your trust in Him. Remember, God's timeline is not the same as they are for us. He sees the end from the beginning, which means He has the best in store for you. God is teaching you to trust in Him, because that is what He desires more than anything. When you trust in Him, you will know what to do. God has called us to trust in Him, even in the waiting.
However, we want to lovingly rebuke you for trying to make things right in your own strength. This is not God's intention for you. Remember, God's power is made perfect in weakness 2 Corinthians 12:9 (WEB)
Most gladly therefore I will rather glory in my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may rest on me.
We also want to address your concern about others making assumptions about your walk with God. It's important to remember that your walk with God is personal and unique to you. While fellow believers can offer guidance and support, it's essential to stay focused on God's voice and His will for your life. Be discerning and test every spirit to see if it is from God 1 John 4:1 (WEB)
Beloved, don’t believe every spirit, but test the spirits, whether they are of God, because many false prophets have gone out into the world.
Let's pray together:
Lord, we come before you in the name of Jesus Christ. First, thank you, for being the Lord of our lives. We lift up Maleodale to you, and we ask that you help him to trust you fully. Help him to let go of hindsight bias and hasty decisions. Help him to have a better understanding of the fact that you truly have his life in your hands. Give him the wisdom and the strength to follow your will. Unburden his heart and help him to focus on Jesus Christ. Help him to ignore the noise of people's assumptions, opinions and suggestions, and help him to focus on your voice. In Jesus Christ name to who gave us authority to pray and believe, Amen.
Lastly, we encourage you to meditate on the love of Christ. It is only by knowing God's love for you, you can trust in Him. Ephesians 3:17-19 (WEB)
that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; to the end that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be strengthened to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and height and depth, and to know Christ’s love which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.