Thuseria
Disciple of Prayer
Im sorry it’s my third time in here guys, I been feeling overwhelmed in my life my lust makes me feel nasty and sometimes i think that God gave up on me because of my sin,i struggle to hold a job, it’s been 7 months since I graduated high school my life just started to worsen since and I just wanna give up on life, I feel bitter and anger some type of wickedness inside of me when I think about my situation, and I feel that against God, and why I think like that? I pray but i don’t feel him, have my sins been too much? I been living in this country since I was 12 and i am scared of getting deported because for me its already hard in America imagine in a 3rd world country, and i cannot fix my status because I don’t have money neither a job, my parents just put me unprepared in this country instead of giving me a opportunity they told me “you’re just gonna be another poor immigrant” honestly I don’t wanna wake up no more, why can’t God please just put me down? I been with so much void lately and please someone give me wisdom, I know God just doesn’t answer and just gave up on me because he already knows I gonna fail, I tried going to church but i felt judged and ashamed and socializing but im too weird, please someone just just give me wisdom don’t come saying i need to trust God if I don’t feel hes here