Anonymous
Beloved of All
Hi,
Thanks for reading this. I call TBN way too often and post on Joel Osteen's site for prayers when I remember to do it while on the computer.
A couple month ago this between my husband and I started to go south pretty quickly. Last month he left me and came back and said he wants to work on things. Then again I made many more mistakes and on Tuesday night he asked me to move out. I've been staying with my parents and they want to drill it into my head that it's over. They act like 'we told you so.' And my husband (we're newlyweds btw) says he can't forgive me for the things I've said to him and how I've treated him, even though I'm trying. He says in his mind, we are separated and actually we were NEVER married.
What I want more than anything in the world is for him to contact me and say I love you, you ARE my wife, come home.
I don't wanna keep being apart, this is so stupid. We should be together. But it's like he says he loves me out loud and hates me in his mind.
Please pray that we get back together and things can go back to when we were truly happy. I'll get my vows renewed, or whatever else it takes to show him I'm committed and that I love him. I just need for him to be there and want to see it. He's so far away. He says he wants to be away from me for a few weeks and that I should make new friends and get a boyfriend and really be happy. Like he's doing me a FAVOR.
I still have faith that God is doing some things and that there will be some kind of reward on the other side once this test is over. But it's so painful to be here in the meantime. It's like telling someone Hey that sandwich you had last night will be your last meal until God knows when. So you better do your best to survive for the next month on that or else you'll simply die.
Please pray. Or call me and listen to me cry for an hour. I'll take what I can get. I keep saying I wish we were in biblical times so Jesus could physically be here in front of me, sit next to me, and tell me what to do. I need answers. Or clues. Or just a one-word answer about whether or not we'll ever get back together. Sometimes I have this fantasy that years from now, when we're in our forties, we'll be at a conference or seminar talking to new struggling couples about how to overcome even the most severe marital problems.
I want to know: Is there hope? Should I move on? Or is this some little thing and I should hang in there because we WILL get back together? See what I mean...if I could meet Jesus at a well in Samaria I wouldn't have to seek clues everywhere. I could so much as barely touch the edge of his coat and BAM my life would be perfect. I need so much help. This is the worst situation I've ever been in and need help so badly.
Please pray. Thanks much!
Thanks for reading this. I call TBN way too often and post on Joel Osteen's site for prayers when I remember to do it while on the computer.
A couple month ago this between my husband and I started to go south pretty quickly. Last month he left me and came back and said he wants to work on things. Then again I made many more mistakes and on Tuesday night he asked me to move out. I've been staying with my parents and they want to drill it into my head that it's over. They act like 'we told you so.' And my husband (we're newlyweds btw) says he can't forgive me for the things I've said to him and how I've treated him, even though I'm trying. He says in his mind, we are separated and actually we were NEVER married.
What I want more than anything in the world is for him to contact me and say I love you, you ARE my wife, come home.
I don't wanna keep being apart, this is so stupid. We should be together. But it's like he says he loves me out loud and hates me in his mind.
Please pray that we get back together and things can go back to when we were truly happy. I'll get my vows renewed, or whatever else it takes to show him I'm committed and that I love him. I just need for him to be there and want to see it. He's so far away. He says he wants to be away from me for a few weeks and that I should make new friends and get a boyfriend and really be happy. Like he's doing me a FAVOR.
I still have faith that God is doing some things and that there will be some kind of reward on the other side once this test is over. But it's so painful to be here in the meantime. It's like telling someone Hey that sandwich you had last night will be your last meal until God knows when. So you better do your best to survive for the next month on that or else you'll simply die.
Please pray. Or call me and listen to me cry for an hour. I'll take what I can get. I keep saying I wish we were in biblical times so Jesus could physically be here in front of me, sit next to me, and tell me what to do. I need answers. Or clues. Or just a one-word answer about whether or not we'll ever get back together. Sometimes I have this fantasy that years from now, when we're in our forties, we'll be at a conference or seminar talking to new struggling couples about how to overcome even the most severe marital problems.
I want to know: Is there hope? Should I move on? Or is this some little thing and I should hang in there because we WILL get back together? See what I mean...if I could meet Jesus at a well in Samaria I wouldn't have to seek clues everywhere. I could so much as barely touch the edge of his coat and BAM my life would be perfect. I need so much help. This is the worst situation I've ever been in and need help so badly.
Please pray. Thanks much!