I’m sorry to hear what you’re going through, Reuben. Please know that I said a prayer for you, asking the Lord to reveal His healing presence to you in a special and powerful way, filling you with His love, peace, and strength. Remember that He is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in Him (Nahum 1:7). Stay strong in Him. I’d suggest that you check out the book: The Anxiety Cure by Dr. Archibald D. Hart. Peace to you.