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(Raphael) Jonathan
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Hi, my name is (Raphael) Jonathan Tan. I'm a Chinese from Malaysia, born 1996(age 20). I'm a Christian, I was born with this rare, severe dry skin disease diagnosed #ICHTHYOSIS (similar to Eczema/Psoriasis). You can research it up and get a better idea. #awareness. it affects my whole body from head to toe, not one part is spared.
Doctors claimed its Genetics, but no trace from family ancestors whatsoever. Even my blood brother is Normal and healthy. which is a Miracle on its own. That's why we're 7 years apart.
The small town church which I grew up in has been praying for me. My parents have spent all that they have trying to cure me. Been to many Christian healing seminars/service/rally/conference/meetings when I was young (and still do when theres an opportunity) but somehow only my mum was always called out and got deliverance (it was back then, which after several years now she's been completely delivered!)
Maybe because of her Conversion to Christianity. She wasn't strong in the Lord at that time and my dad was a beginner Christian as well.(But I don't blame anybody really I'm over that) and Because of the complication of my pre-mature birth and my mum's water-bag burst pregnancy, my grandpa who is a Buddhist prayed to his God called "monkey God" that explains the big black gorilla-like shadow standing at my mums bedside during her stay, as witnessed by patient next to hers. That might be the cause.
Another cause might be some medical complications, as my mum had to intake 1000 painkillers and antibiotics as prescribed by the doctors. I researched it and apparently it isn't so good when overdosed, and the side effects of it. We know of another victim with the same diagnosis where the mother had water bag burst and pre-matured and overdose of pills and the baby is now suffering the same diagnosis as mine, Except minus the spiritual warfare thing going on, so what's exactly is the cause I'm not sure.
I too have been praying a lot this several years, now that I'm matured. I have been searching everywhere for the source of healing, whether medically, physically or spiritually. Medical and physical healing(natural remedies) is only temporary, and partial. when I stop taking, it comes back because that's how my body functions abnormally, my metabolism and immune system is hay wired. So basically I'll have to take it all my life, But even by taking all these, I'm not 100% better! I would say only 60-70%. Enough to garnered Unwanted Attention, which I dislike the most. I only believe God can heal me 100% and for eternity and I'm still holding on to that truth.
Now that I'm 20, I wish to be set free before I reach adulthood, my childhood and youthhood is ruined and I don't want to bring it further to ruin my life. Afterall God has payed for it all on the Cross and that I'm ALREADY HEALED BY HIS STRIPES, I believe God don't get the glory FROM the sickness, He gets the glory OUT OF the sickness. God don't glorify sickness for Jesus himself came and destroy them. I don't know about disabilities and deformities, but disease was a major thing Jesus came to destroy when He was on Earth.
The problem with this condition is that this is a disease I can see, its visible, so it's hard to stay confident, and in faith, as it also affects my self esteem and self worth very badly. I suffer fear, anxiety, depression, shame, etc. because of my appearance. And because of that, I have some attitude problems, and relationship problems with my parents, because of the frustrations and discouragements, it kinda made me quick to angered and easily irritated. I had wonder if it's because of my attitude that I'm not healing. But it's not by performance but by grace. However I do need inner emotional, mental and spiritually healing too. I can't help but doubt when I pray and don't see anything. It's really hard. And I feel like it's not going to happen. I tried not believing what I see but it seems like I'm literally lying to myself. Maybe because I'm fearful of being disappointed again and putting my hopes up just to be discouraged. I want to hear from God and what's his purpose for all THIS. I know He has His reasons and plans. At times when I'm broken, burn out, tired, I do feel like giving up and just ACCEPTING it as it is like the world to tell you to, even some Christians, BUT I don't want to miss Gods blessings, what He has personally Promised me and through the the Word. All this years I've been praying, my family, my pastors and churches have been as well. I can say I have been gradually improving with the help of prayers and medications and treatments and proper diet. But for such a progress for 20 years is taking way far too long, as I'm now twenty, turning adulthood, I would so want to be set free from this forever.
My days are spent, researching, going online and seeking help and praying, praying and praying Majority of it is talking to God, literally like He's a person beside me, venting, thanksgiving, petition, praying, asking, seeking, knocking, you name it. So much so to a point of being a psycho as it feels like I'm talking to myself, cause he doesn't talks back most of the time. I do have a relationship with him. I have a prayer life. I do have a devotion and quiet time with him, problem is HE too stays quiet, and that's a major problem. I have a time of charismatic activity, name it claim it, rebuking all sort of spirit etc, speaking to my condition, taking authority, all that stuff. I wonder if it actually works like what I've seen and learn here on YouTube. It's a lot harder when it's YOU, when you can actually still SEE and feel the symptoms. I need the anointing.
Please pray for me too, if you have the faith for me, the prayer of Faith shall save the sick! I have dreams, goals, passions, relationship to pursue! Of course I can do them now but I don't want to start on this foundation, I want to start anew! A new creation! Plus I can do them even better with a healthy body than a sick one. God has revealed that "He is willing!" To me, that was a prophesy he gave me in particular, and the only thing I'm holding on my faith to. Knowing that HE CAN, and now HE WILL heal me! I have submitted my prayer request to various online forums. I believe in prayer. Please do keep me in prayer. I'm desperately in need of healing touch. Nothing's worse than a long term suffering of chronic illness, especially one whom has never experienced a "normal" healthy life.
Do email me and tell me where you're emailing from (jonathantan96@gmail.com) God bless.
Doctors claimed its Genetics, but no trace from family ancestors whatsoever. Even my blood brother is Normal and healthy. which is a Miracle on its own. That's why we're 7 years apart.
The small town church which I grew up in has been praying for me. My parents have spent all that they have trying to cure me. Been to many Christian healing seminars/service/rally/conference/meetings when I was young (and still do when theres an opportunity) but somehow only my mum was always called out and got deliverance (it was back then, which after several years now she's been completely delivered!)
Maybe because of her Conversion to Christianity. She wasn't strong in the Lord at that time and my dad was a beginner Christian as well.(But I don't blame anybody really I'm over that) and Because of the complication of my pre-mature birth and my mum's water-bag burst pregnancy, my grandpa who is a Buddhist prayed to his God called "monkey God" that explains the big black gorilla-like shadow standing at my mums bedside during her stay, as witnessed by patient next to hers. That might be the cause.
Another cause might be some medical complications, as my mum had to intake 1000 painkillers and antibiotics as prescribed by the doctors. I researched it and apparently it isn't so good when overdosed, and the side effects of it. We know of another victim with the same diagnosis where the mother had water bag burst and pre-matured and overdose of pills and the baby is now suffering the same diagnosis as mine, Except minus the spiritual warfare thing going on, so what's exactly is the cause I'm not sure.
I too have been praying a lot this several years, now that I'm matured. I have been searching everywhere for the source of healing, whether medically, physically or spiritually. Medical and physical healing(natural remedies) is only temporary, and partial. when I stop taking, it comes back because that's how my body functions abnormally, my metabolism and immune system is hay wired. So basically I'll have to take it all my life, But even by taking all these, I'm not 100% better! I would say only 60-70%. Enough to garnered Unwanted Attention, which I dislike the most. I only believe God can heal me 100% and for eternity and I'm still holding on to that truth.
Now that I'm 20, I wish to be set free before I reach adulthood, my childhood and youthhood is ruined and I don't want to bring it further to ruin my life. Afterall God has payed for it all on the Cross and that I'm ALREADY HEALED BY HIS STRIPES, I believe God don't get the glory FROM the sickness, He gets the glory OUT OF the sickness. God don't glorify sickness for Jesus himself came and destroy them. I don't know about disabilities and deformities, but disease was a major thing Jesus came to destroy when He was on Earth.
The problem with this condition is that this is a disease I can see, its visible, so it's hard to stay confident, and in faith, as it also affects my self esteem and self worth very badly. I suffer fear, anxiety, depression, shame, etc. because of my appearance. And because of that, I have some attitude problems, and relationship problems with my parents, because of the frustrations and discouragements, it kinda made me quick to angered and easily irritated. I had wonder if it's because of my attitude that I'm not healing. But it's not by performance but by grace. However I do need inner emotional, mental and spiritually healing too. I can't help but doubt when I pray and don't see anything. It's really hard. And I feel like it's not going to happen. I tried not believing what I see but it seems like I'm literally lying to myself. Maybe because I'm fearful of being disappointed again and putting my hopes up just to be discouraged. I want to hear from God and what's his purpose for all THIS. I know He has His reasons and plans. At times when I'm broken, burn out, tired, I do feel like giving up and just ACCEPTING it as it is like the world to tell you to, even some Christians, BUT I don't want to miss Gods blessings, what He has personally Promised me and through the the Word. All this years I've been praying, my family, my pastors and churches have been as well. I can say I have been gradually improving with the help of prayers and medications and treatments and proper diet. But for such a progress for 20 years is taking way far too long, as I'm now twenty, turning adulthood, I would so want to be set free from this forever.
My days are spent, researching, going online and seeking help and praying, praying and praying Majority of it is talking to God, literally like He's a person beside me, venting, thanksgiving, petition, praying, asking, seeking, knocking, you name it. So much so to a point of being a psycho as it feels like I'm talking to myself, cause he doesn't talks back most of the time. I do have a relationship with him. I have a prayer life. I do have a devotion and quiet time with him, problem is HE too stays quiet, and that's a major problem. I have a time of charismatic activity, name it claim it, rebuking all sort of spirit etc, speaking to my condition, taking authority, all that stuff. I wonder if it actually works like what I've seen and learn here on YouTube. It's a lot harder when it's YOU, when you can actually still SEE and feel the symptoms. I need the anointing.
Please pray for me too, if you have the faith for me, the prayer of Faith shall save the sick! I have dreams, goals, passions, relationship to pursue! Of course I can do them now but I don't want to start on this foundation, I want to start anew! A new creation! Plus I can do them even better with a healthy body than a sick one. God has revealed that "He is willing!" To me, that was a prophesy he gave me in particular, and the only thing I'm holding on my faith to. Knowing that HE CAN, and now HE WILL heal me! I have submitted my prayer request to various online forums. I believe in prayer. Please do keep me in prayer. I'm desperately in need of healing touch. Nothing's worse than a long term suffering of chronic illness, especially one whom has never experienced a "normal" healthy life.
Do email me and tell me where you're emailing from (jonathantan96@gmail.com) God bless.
