Andulthea
Disciple of Prayer
Hi my name is Gaurav Shrivastav i am 23 years old and i am in a serious problem from my point of view i will explain i belong from hindu relegion in 2020 i got to know about Jesus i was attracted to him i feel he draw me to himself as he say. he changed my life i was experiencing heaven on earth he was answering all my prayers he also saved my father's life when he was about to die i was so happy but i was not saved i think i just got to know about Jesus but i didn't knew about that i have to got to be saved from hell and for that i have to believe God raised Jesus i did not knew about bible and then i left Jesus and i lived a completely sinful life but now i read bible and from internet i got to know about hell and heaven and many things about Christianity and i am not saved and i am not able to save myself as God isn't interested to save me i lived a completely sinful life but now i realize i want to turn to God from sin and i wanna live for him i want to go in heaven but God is completely absent in my life i pray sinners prayers i don't feel anything i pray many times for long periods also i read Bible verses but before when i was doing all these things i was feeling God's presence he was answering my prayers now he is completely absent in my life like he doesn't exist so the problem is i also don't feel i am saved and he is completely absent in my life so i have came back to Hinduism eating psychiatrist medicines because i am afraid to die because i fear hell i have completely destroyed my life i need Jesus please pray for my situation i am a hindu and i am also from india it little hard for me to become Christian but i have decided but if God will not there for me it will be more hard God isn't interested please pray for me to change my situation i feel God doesn't love me now.