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Humble Prayer Warrior
Hi,
I apologize this is going to be kind of long. I just communicate a lot better in writing and my prayer requests are usually a bit long.
There is a man I met a couple of weeks ago who is a Christian and we are on the same page politically. He volunteered his time to be in a very very short three to five minute film where he played a very sad sympathetic character.
I have developed an attraction to him and i am trying to be level headed about it (a piece of me is a bit infatuated with what he does, what he's "been in", etc. and I am not wanting to fall for any of his "personas" he played). I know that is not a healthy foundation for a mature attraction and I am trying not to focus on those things about him. I sense, based on the phone calls we have had (we have talked a few times) that he may be interested in me, as we are tryign to chat about other things. When he calls my emotions seem to overtake me and i feel like a 16 year old who has a crush on the high school lead football player or something.
When I pray about it, I have had a couple of different impressions. i have first asked God to remove the immature attraction and if its in his will, to replace it with a healthy attraction. I have heard "no, he's not the one for you," I have also heard "explore it." I know both can't be from the Lord.
I have for the most part heard "no" my entire life. I thought i got a soft yes once from the Lord, but within weeks of being open to it, the man lost interest.
I will hear "no" before I even have a chance to go out with anyone or get to know them any deeper. sometimes I am just mildly attracted or think they are handsome, other times it may be something immature like being entrhaled with what they do, which i know isn't a pure motive.
I am struggling because the emotions are strong when i think about this guy, not super strong, but i can feel myself wanting to continue chatting with him.
I don't want to throw the baby out with the bathwater, and miss any ships God has for me. Many years ago the Lord told me to move to GA. I didn't jump on it fast enough and years later I got a prophetic word that I missed my husband because I didn't move. years later, I had another "prophetic word" about some new interest, which there were no feelings back.
I have had people tell me i "dont even give them a chance", but I am trying to be very cautious and examine my heart before i make the move ( no codependency, vain imagiation, etc).
This has been a messy part of my life, I am 45, no kids, never been married, and pretty unhappy about it.
My prayer is whether or not this is "the man" that I can stay strong in the Lord and when God is ready for me to date, I can be balanced and not idolize anyone I go out with.
I just had the prayer garden pray about my singleness a couple of weeks before I met this guy. i realize the enemy can also deceive, so even though i may be a little emotionally unready for this, i dont want to miss a ship.
Please pray that I hear God's voice in this, and that I accept his answer. I ususally get so dissapointed in the No i dont always accept it right away. Also, that when i meet someone i dont immediately jump into asking God if they are the one.
I want God to just shut this whole thing down with this man if it's a no, no sense in putting my emotions on the line.
Really really sick of not having a companion =(. Sometimes I wonder if i will ever meet someone or ever be ready.
Thank you for reading this. Personal replies mean a lot to me as I struggle with wondering how many people actually read these, especialy when a "I prayed for this" response is posted thirty seconds later. Sorry. You don't have to repsond personally, just hope it's read.
I apologize this is going to be kind of long. I just communicate a lot better in writing and my prayer requests are usually a bit long.
There is a man I met a couple of weeks ago who is a Christian and we are on the same page politically. He volunteered his time to be in a very very short three to five minute film where he played a very sad sympathetic character.
I have developed an attraction to him and i am trying to be level headed about it (a piece of me is a bit infatuated with what he does, what he's "been in", etc. and I am not wanting to fall for any of his "personas" he played). I know that is not a healthy foundation for a mature attraction and I am trying not to focus on those things about him. I sense, based on the phone calls we have had (we have talked a few times) that he may be interested in me, as we are tryign to chat about other things. When he calls my emotions seem to overtake me and i feel like a 16 year old who has a crush on the high school lead football player or something.
When I pray about it, I have had a couple of different impressions. i have first asked God to remove the immature attraction and if its in his will, to replace it with a healthy attraction. I have heard "no, he's not the one for you," I have also heard "explore it." I know both can't be from the Lord.
I have for the most part heard "no" my entire life. I thought i got a soft yes once from the Lord, but within weeks of being open to it, the man lost interest.
I will hear "no" before I even have a chance to go out with anyone or get to know them any deeper. sometimes I am just mildly attracted or think they are handsome, other times it may be something immature like being entrhaled with what they do, which i know isn't a pure motive.
I am struggling because the emotions are strong when i think about this guy, not super strong, but i can feel myself wanting to continue chatting with him.
I don't want to throw the baby out with the bathwater, and miss any ships God has for me. Many years ago the Lord told me to move to GA. I didn't jump on it fast enough and years later I got a prophetic word that I missed my husband because I didn't move. years later, I had another "prophetic word" about some new interest, which there were no feelings back.
I have had people tell me i "dont even give them a chance", but I am trying to be very cautious and examine my heart before i make the move ( no codependency, vain imagiation, etc).
This has been a messy part of my life, I am 45, no kids, never been married, and pretty unhappy about it.
My prayer is whether or not this is "the man" that I can stay strong in the Lord and when God is ready for me to date, I can be balanced and not idolize anyone I go out with.
I just had the prayer garden pray about my singleness a couple of weeks before I met this guy. i realize the enemy can also deceive, so even though i may be a little emotionally unready for this, i dont want to miss a ship.
Please pray that I hear God's voice in this, and that I accept his answer. I ususally get so dissapointed in the No i dont always accept it right away. Also, that when i meet someone i dont immediately jump into asking God if they are the one.
I want God to just shut this whole thing down with this man if it's a no, no sense in putting my emotions on the line.
Really really sick of not having a companion =(. Sometimes I wonder if i will ever meet someone or ever be ready.
Thank you for reading this. Personal replies mean a lot to me as I struggle with wondering how many people actually read these, especialy when a "I prayed for this" response is posted thirty seconds later. Sorry. You don't have to repsond personally, just hope it's read.