Hotephele
Disciple of Prayer
Hey praise the lord I have an very hard prayer request which i wnna share you guyz naybe it can help me cuz literally no one in earth can help me right now Iam.not gonna say that i am in a lots of trouble which im not able to face but instead i would like to say things are getting out of my hands from childhood... I am 17 years old iwas never happy literally never i was kid who used to see my family fights eachother from a corner of houseand and cry harder but still no one cared at my own house they gave alot of presents everyday called traumas which iam still having i am not able to get rid of those at a point of life i decided never to share any shit of my life with them aor anyone and will not care abt them i always used to pray to give us peace he did but not for a long period even tho i believed only him..in 2020 i fell in love guess what i was again unlucky in this i prayed for her again but in 2023 ending everything ended i dropped my 11th class in school due to family pressure and love stuff but Still i lived after thinking to die everyday i also stopped believing in god stuff because he gave up one me..at somewhere i found a girl who saw a new version of me tyred to fix me and ahe did a bit enough but guess what recently she talking abt a guy to get in relationship if anyone is reading this specially male i guess you can understand the pain of losing first love after sacrificing everything with childhood trauma and losing a person who tryed to fix you and you loved her this 2nd girl dont know how much i like her but i dont wnna break my life again and again and decide if not this girl then never goin to love a girl and maybe never getting married to any other you may be reading this like a text but i am crying i am breaking inside out dont know what iam doing in life why god not helping me Let me tell you the biggest part of my life..i am a porn addicted person tooo i used it to run from my childhood traumas but it tured as addiction i trying to do my best not to get addicted But still failing in everything today i texted you guyss hoping some help by adding my name in your prayers btw myself ABHISHEK 17yr old from india..i dont think God's with me but i bope he'll listen to your prayer i hope you read these msgs