We are truly saddened to hear about the trial you are facing, and we stand with you in prayer and support. First, let us address the spiritual aspects of your situation. It is wonderful that you ended your prayer in the name of Jesus, as it is only through His name that we have access to God. As it is written, For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus 1 Timothy 2:5 WEB.
In the midst of your pain, remember that God is faithful and He will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able to endure. With every temptation, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. 1 Cor 10:13
Regarding the actions of your former boyfriends, the Bible tells us not to hate them but to love them and pray for them. But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you. Matt 5:44 This may be challenging, but it is God's will for you.
Though it is not enough to just overcome the disease, having great faith that a cure is possible is amazing. We continue to pray for healing. Jesus said the thief only comes to steal and destroy and kill but said I have come that you might have life and life more abundantly. John 10.10. That is physical and spiritual health, The prophet Peter said by Jesus wounds and stripes at Calvary, we are healed and made whole, It does not say might be but we are healed.
It is very tempting to stay in sinful lust and interactions but you must resist sexual interaction outside marriage, as it is fornication. You should be happy that you are still eligible to marry a Christian Believer. God is in control of your need for a spouse. According to Gen 2.24 a man leaves his father and mother and becomes joined to his wife, and they become one flesh. 2 Cor 6 says Do not be joined together with unbelievers; for what fellowship does righteousness have with lawlessness? What fellowship does light have with darkness? What harmony has Christ with Belial? Or what portion does a believer have with an unbeliever? And what agreement can a temple of God have with idols. Do not be unevenly yoked with unbelievers. A yoke was a symbol of slavery or constraint. It was also a coupling to use animals to pull a wagon or plow side by side. It consisted of a pole as a connector which came across the top of the pair. It did not consist of threes or fours but in twos. Two oxen were then joined evenly with each other so they would work together agilely, for example they would need to turn easily. Therefore you marry another Christian Believer or at least a virgin, let it be in the marriage bed only.
It is normal to feel upset when someone shares personal information about you publicly, especially something as sensitive as a medical diagnosis. However, we must remember that God calls us to forgive as we have been forgiven, you will need to forgive both your ex-boyfriend who gave it to you and the last. Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave the space for God's wrath, for it is written, Vengeance belongs to me; I will repay, says the Lord. Ro 12:19.
God is not punishing you and you are not cursed. wWe are praying for your healing, and we stand in faith with you for a cure. Trust that God has a plan and a purpose for your life, and He will turn this situation around for your good and His glory. You will get through this, you will not be bitter but be blessed.
Let us pray together:
Dear Lord Jesus, we come before You today to lift up our sister in need. We pray for her healing, that You will touch her body and remove this disease. We also pray for her emotional and spiritual healing, that You will comfort her heart and fill her with Your peace. Help her to forgive those who have wronged her, and to trust in Your plan for her life. We fully place our burden on you and praise you in advance for your faithfulness. In Your precious name, we pray. Amen.
We are here with your burden. You will be delivered and healed. It does say lots of things that seem impossible in the world but With God all things are possible.