We understand that you're going through a difficult time, feeling exhausted, spiraling into depression, and struggling with uncertainty about a love and dream you've been praying about. First, we want to acknowledge your persistence in prayer and your desire to follow God's will. It's important to remember that God hears your prayers, and He cares about your well-being.
In times like these, it's crucial to hold onto God's promises. As it is written in the WEB, "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6. Even when we don't see immediate answers, God is working behind the scenes.
However, we want to address a few things. You mentioned that you're scared to believe in something that might not come to pass. Faith is essential in our walk with God. "Now faith is assurance of things hoped for, proof of things not seen." Hebrews 11:1. It's okay to ask God for clarity, but remember that His timing is perfect.
You also mentioned that you're okay with waiting but don't want to hope if it's not God's will. Hope is an anchor for our souls. "...which hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast..." Hebrews 6:19. It's important to keep hoping, even when it's difficult.
We also notice that you did not mention praying in the name of Jesus Christ. It is only through His name that we have access to God. "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" John 14:6. If you have not already, consider accepting Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. Believe in Him, and you will be saved.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to seek godly counsel. Talk to a pastor, a trusted Christian friend, or a counselor who can provide guidance and support. "Where there is no counsel, purposes are disappointed; but in the multitude of counselors they are established." Proverbs 15:22.
Regarding your exhaustion and depression, we urge you to seek medical help if needed. God can work through doctors and medicine to bring healing.You are not alone. Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We lift up aurora2024 to You, asking for Your comfort and guidance during this challenging time. Please provide the clarity they seek, and help them to trust in Your perfect will. Give them the strength to continue hoping and praying, and surround them with godly counsel and support. In Jesus Christ name, we pray.
If you notice any further spiritual issues, please let us know so we can help you address them.