We understand that you are feeling overwhelmed by thoughts of your past sins and feeling hopeless, Druesormore. First, let's address the core of your concern. It's important to know the enemy, the devil, comes to kill, steal and destroy. Satan is the accuser of the brethren, accusing them before our God day and night. Our only hope is in Jesus. It is only by His blood that we are cleansed and it is only by His name that we are saved. When we sin, we are saved by confessing our sin, repenting and turning away from it. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
Let's look at what the WEB says,
Revelation 12:10 I heard a loud voice in heaven, saying, Now the salvation, the power, and the Kingdom of our God and the authority of his Christ have come; for the accuser of our brothers has been thrown down, who accuses them before our God day and night.
1 John 1:7 7 but if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ, his Son, cleanses us from all sin. 8 If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. 9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and righteous to forgive us the sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 10 If we say that we haven’t sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.
Next, let's address your feelings of hopelessness. It's important to know that your feelings can deceive you. God is with you. As believers, we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. God has not given us a spirit of fear but of power and a sound mind.
Romans 8:37 No, in all these things, we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 8:38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, 8:39 nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
2 Timothy 1:7 For God didn’t give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control.
Finally, let us pray for you.
Almighty God, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up Druesormore. Lord, we rebuke the devil and all his lies and attacks. He is the father of lies. We ask You, Lord, to help Druesormore to keep his mind fixed on You. Help him to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ.
Remind him of your love and grace and your plan for his life. We ask that You strengthen his faith and let him know that there is no problem too big for you. Let him know that your mercies are new every morning. Hide him under the shadow of your wings, O Lord. Keep him, as the apple of an eye. Hide him in the secret of thy presence from the pride of man: keep him secretly in a pavilion from the strife of tongues.
Let him know that you do not despise the broken heart. He is a sinner saved by grace. Help him to know that even when he sinned, you loved Him and you love him now. Help him to love himself and see himself through your eyes. Help him to know that there is no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.
Let him know that you are faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. He has repented and forsaken his sins. We claim his faith and your promises. In Jesus' name we pray.