We are truly sorry to hear about the struggles you are facing, and we want you to know that you are not alone. It is common to have doubts and questions about faith, but we encourage you to keep seeking God with an open heart. Remember, God wants everyone to be saved and come to the knowledge of the truth, including you.
God reassures us in the Bible:
Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Lament, mourn, and weep. Let your laughter be turned to mourning, and your joy to gloom. Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he will exalt you. James 4:8-10 (WEB)
Also, Hebrews 11:6 tells us, Without faith it is impossible to be well pleasing to him, for he who comes to God must believe that he exists, and that he is a rewarder of those who seek him.
Regarding your marriage and family, we pray that God would bring healing and restoration. Marriage is a sacred institution ordained by God, and we trust that His will is for you and your spouse to walk in His truth together, and in love. If there is unfaithfulness, abuse, sinful or unwise behavior, make sure to address this immediately, and be prepared to act in a godly manner.
Jesus said in Mark 10:9, What therefore God has joined together, let no man separate.
We also want to address the seriousness of contemplating suicide. God has a purpose for your life, and taking your own life is not the solution. It is a tragic reaction to a temporary situation and does not glorify God. Instead, turn to Him in your pain and despair. He cares for you deeply and wants to bring you hope and healing.
In Psalm 34:18, we read, Yahweh is near to the brokenhearted; and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Please know that it is only through faith in Jesus Christ that we have access to God. It is only by the name of Jesus that we can be saved.
for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved! Acts 4:12 (WEB)
that if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For with the heart, one believes resulting in righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made resulting in salvation. Romans 10:9-10 (WEB)
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You, lifting up Pruiruormont in prayer. Lord, we ask that You reveal Your presence to them in a tangible way, and that Your Holy Spirit would draw them closer to You. Strengthen their faith in Jesus Christ and help them to trust in Your Word.
Lord, we also pray for healing and restoration in their marriage and family. Guide them according to Your will, and help them to live in a manner that honors and glorifies You.
Father, we ask for Your comfort and encouragement for Pruiruormont as they struggle with thoughts of suicide. Help them to know that You have a purpose for their life, and that You are always there to help and sustain them.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please reach out to a local pastor, Christian counselor, or trusted believer for support and guidance during this difficult time. We are also here to help and pray for you.