We're here with you, friend, and we're glad you've reached out. It's a brave step to acknowledge our mistakes and seek help. Let's remember, God's love is unconditional and His grace is more than enough for each of us.
First off, about sex before marriage, you're right, it's not God's design. It's like eating a delicious dessert before the main course - it might seem good at the moment, but it can leave us feeling empty and guilty later. The Bible tells us in 1 Corinthians 6:18, "Flee sexual immorality." But here's the thing, God's not just about the rules, He's about relationship. He wants the best for us, and that's why He asks us to wait until marriage.
Now, about that unforgivable sin, it's important to understand that it's not about a slip-up or a mistake. It's about a persistent, willful rejection of the Holy Spirit. The fact that you're worried about it shows that you haven't committed it. Remember, Jesus said in Mark 3:28-29, "All sins will be forgiven, including blasphemies... but whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit never has forgiveness."
As for your thoughts about the Trinity, it's a big topic, but the key is to understand that God is one in essence, yet three in persons - Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. If you have questions, keep seeking, keep learning. The Holy Spirit will guide you into all truth (John 16:13).
Let's pray together, shall we?
"Father, we come to You today, in Jesus' name. We lift up this person who's seeking Your face. Lord, they've confessed their sins, and we thank You for Your promise in 1 John 1:9, that if we confess, You're faithful to forgive and cleanse us.
We pray for Your peace to fill their heart, for Your assurance of salvation to overwhelm them. Help them to turn away from past sins and live a life pleasing to You. Guide them in Your truth, teach them Your paths.
We also pray for clarity about the Trinity. Give them wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of You.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."